making the journey....

[aroutinemalaise]

hey guys, good evening

today was my possible last day, and it went very smoothly. I did everything I wanted to, and I am now an hour into my journey. my destination is about 3 hours away from my town (live in the northern US) ive decided to stay in my state, just in case I do go to the hospital (didn't wanna mess around w trying to find out how my insurance covers out of state stuff, yikes)

I'll update this thread the next time I stop, or when I arrive and let y'all know what I'm going to do blessed be

 

[NorthernStar]

Looking forward to your updates. Be safe.

 

[aroutinemalaise]

update: after making it to my destination, driving around for a while, taking many wrong turns... I've decided to go to the hospital. sitting in the parking lot, having a last smoke before I go in. will keep updating...

I do feel a little like a failure, and I feel sorry for my bf and family who will find out tomorrow, hopefully. I'm going to ask them not to call anyone tonight to let them know I'm here.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

update: after making it to my destination, driving around for a while, taking many wrong turns... I've decided to go to the hospital. sitting in the parking lot, having a last smoke before I go in. will keep updating...

I do feel a little like a failure, and I feel sorry for my bf and family who will find out tomorrow, hopefully. I'm going to ask them not to call anyone tonight to let them know I'm here.

Its ok, you are not a failure and there is nothing to be ashamed of. Even if they react badly, im sure deep inside theyll be glad you stayed and asked for help.
Try to be calm and relaxed and i wish you good luck

 

[FriendofDeath]

You are not a failure. It takes guts to ask for help. This is the path you need now - no telling where it will take you! Blessed be back to you!

 

[aroutinemalaise]

update 2 - have been transported to a different hospital... the ambulance people were very funny, and everyone's been very nice to me. they're also giving me ativan, which id never turn down, lol... thank you for all the kind wishes

 

[I screwed up]

Why they taking u to diff hospital... How u feeling now ?

 

[jgm63]

Wishing you all the best.....

 

[DeadAimz]

I hope things work out for you im always a message away if you need a chat! much love