Made Up My Mind (September 19th) Is The Day. -Fentanyl-

[darksoul999]

I have made up my mind that the pain and suffering is not worth it anymore.

I have been dealing with Bipolar 2 since the age of 19 & i just can't deal with it.

Right now, i am in a state of Mania, so i have the energy to follow through on it.

Going to visit some family this weekend, they have no clue it will be the last time they see me alive.

I am honestly not scared. I feel impowered actually because i feel in control of my own destiny.

The method will be (Pure Fentanyl) which i tested.

I know somebody on here will say "that method is not reliable" BUT i could say the same about SN.

Its a peaceful method + really the only method i really want to do.

I have SN, but it seems hit and miss and quite uncomfortable.

I actually tried to OD on Fent before but was only saved because i was found 3 mins after taking it.

I will make sure i am alone this time.

Going to get a hotel at the beach, take a walk, then IV it + Snort some if i am still awake.

I hope this works, wish me luck :)

Ill make another post as i get closer to the date.

Thanks for reading.

 

[mekhi]

I guess congrats that you have a plan that works for you. If I may ask, why the 19th? What made you come up with your date?
I have a shotgun and ammo that I can use literally right under my bed :/ I just have trouble with picking a date and setting my mind to it

 

[darksoul999]

That date just feels right to me IDK.

Also, i am still getting some things together, by the 19th ill be ready for sure.