Venting Made it to 27 and I hate it

[Aeathelina]

I celebrated my 27th birthday two days and I have to say....

I am disappointed that I live to see the day. Like why can't I die? I'm not happy in the slightest, there's nothing here for me . Existing with the time moving and everyone achieving so many goals and yet I can barely scrape together funds to keep a roof over my head, with the only constant feeling of fear, dread, sadness and self loathing keeping me company day and night. I don't want to see 28.

I wish I could give me life to someone dying, someone...anyone more worthy than me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand. I am disappointed that I am still alive. It is painful when everything is hopeless and it is such a dreadful feeling knowing things can only get worse. It frustrates me how we were forced to exist in the first place and we have to endure this life. I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.