Losing functionality

[CaliCatCharlie]

Don't know what to say other than I feel like I'm losing myself more and more as the days go by. I'm unable to enjoy anything and everything has become such a chore including feeding myself. I'd rather just lay in bed and do nothing all day. Don't even know why I even try anymore. I feel like once I completely lose sense of myself it'd be easier for me to CTB.

 

[BobMorane]

what did you get ?

 

[Chiisai]

Don't know what to say other than I feel like I'm losing myself more and more as the days go by. I'm unable to enjoy anything and everything has become such a chore including feeding myself. I'd rather just lay in bed and do nothing all day. Don't even know why I even try anymore. I feel like once I completely lose sense of myself it'd be easier for me to CTB.

Heeya. I feel you. I dont know if we'll have the same experience but I've been there too and some days I'll just suddenly have a bit of energy to be happy. Its like an ON/OFF thing for me. I say it helps sometimes. Giving me a bit of hope, prolonging my CTB. If youre looking for hope, I wish this helps you

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. I understand what you are going through, often for me everything is very tiring and I have to force myself to do things. In a way it is like I have already died. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

what did you get ?

I don't know what you mean by this.

 

[BobMorane]

I don't know what you mean by this.

Did you lose functionality over a disease ? Mental or physical

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

Mental.

 

[Risperdead]

exact same here

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Same. These days I spend way more time just sitting and not able to muster up the drive to do small things.

 

[LoveTakesManyForms]

New member here- ditto!
I've had severe anhedonia the last 5 years which has become increasingly frequent in the last 2.
Now it's an endless void of emptiness and physical pain.
I wish some of us could die together so it wasn't so lonely- I shudder at the thought of any of you (and myself) having to do it alone.
Where do you guys hail from? I'm from New Zealand.

 

[enau]

same.Every day i remember i must find efficient ways to die, and quick, because of that, pain crushes everything, im not able to think correctly, when you r life is so fucked , than the painj is not anymore mental or physical, is everything, everywhere , i dont understand why.. well i have to to binance or kraken today (il also try to get med by psychiatrist, but i have to be in control, make somme comedy for that, just the though of it is exhausting) instead of doing nothing ..lovetakesmanyforms, there a thread abbout parternship i think, https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...e-1-before-posting.1253/page-110#post-1329936 here im from eu belgium, far away aha

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

New member here- ditto!
I've had severe anhedonia the last 5 years which has become increasingly frequent in the last 2.
Now it's an endless void of emptiness and physical pain.
I wish some of us could die together so it wasn't so lonely- I shudder at the thought of any of you (and myself) having to do it alone.
Where do you guys hail from? I'm from New Zealand.

I'm from the states and if you couldn't tell from my name California. Also that's pretty funny, I have a friend from New Zealand.