Looking for an idea of how many people on here are suicidal but aren't suffering

[CrescendoChiller]

I'm asking as someone that feels like they have problems that they don't enjoy the idea of facing or trying to resolve, but doesn't feel depressed or like they're dealing with any mental or physical issues. And suicide happens to sound like a fairly quick and easy solution with no good reasons not to implement (aside from navigating the process of going about doing it properly). But I was wondering how many people here were in the same boat as me.

Basically how many people are fairly certain they want to commit suicide, but also aren't suffering from anything, and experience a normal amount of positive and negative feelings on the whole.

 

[Nati]

I'm with you.
I don't think of myself as depressed. Maybe I do have some depressing feelings here and there but it's the results and not the cause for me being suicidal.
I believe I have a pretty good life. Good supporting family (even if we fight every other day), always had the important things and beyond. I'm physically pretty good as well and overall I could pursue whatever I could want in life.
I'm suicidal because A- I can't enjoy this "perfect life" and B- I have a physical anxiety.
I live from second to second. I don't care if I just finished a 100km bike ride, helped my family, heard a joke.. a second later it's behind me. I watch a comedy show and I can cry from laughter and a second later my face goes back to being straight. So.. I don't have a reason to do anything for myself. I love the idea of riding the entire length of my country and I actually paid a few thousands to buy gear for the trip but I just can't go out the door because I know I wouldn't enjoy it. I love the idea of drawing and I got myself the best tools for the job but I just can't commit to it.
For the anxiety part it's means it's hard for me to being with people. In my brain I'm completely fine but I get these "physical panic attacks" and it might cause me to mumble, tight throat and chest, breathing can be hard… so - I don't enjoy anything and when I still try then I might get the anxiety. The conclusion is - there's no point. I simply have no reason to stay here. Even if I had a magic wand I still can't think of one thing I might do for myself other then die peacefully.

The issue is I don't have anything to push me to take my life. Even if I might feel pretty bad some days it doesn't stay for long because "it's behind me". I have a relaxed life and I don't have any obligations so I'm basically a plant, waiting to die…

 

[CrescendoChiller]

I'm with you.
I don't think of myself as depressed. Maybe I do have some depressing feelings here and there but it's the results and not the cause for me being suicidal.
I believe I have a pretty good life. Good supporting family (even if we fight every other day), always had the important things and beyond. I'm physically pretty good as well and overall I could pursue whatever I could want in life.
I'm suicidal because A- I can't enjoy this "perfect life" and B- I have a physical anxiety.
I live from second to second. I don't care if I just finished a 100km bike ride, helped my family, heard a joke.. a second later it's behind me. I watch a comedy show and I can cry from laughter and a second later my face goes back to being straight. So.. I don't have a reason to do anything for myself. I love the idea of riding the entire length of my country and I actually paid a few thousands to buy gear for the trip but I just can't go out the door because I know I wouldn't enjoy it. I love the idea of drawing and I got myself the best tools for the job but I just can't commit to it.
For the anxiety part it's means it's hard for me to being with people. In my brain I'm completely fine but I get these "physical panic attacks" and it might cause me to mumble, tight throat and chest, breathing can be hard… so - I don't enjoy anything and when I still try then I might get the anxiety. The conclusion is - there's no point. I simply have no reason to stay here. Even if I had a magic wand I still can't think of one thing I might do for myself other then die peacefully.

The issue is I don't have anything to push me to take my life. Even if I might feel pretty bad some days it doesn't stay for long because "it's behind me". I have a relaxed life and I don't have any obligations so I'm basically a plant, waiting to die…

Maybe I do have some depressing feelings here and there but it's the results and not the cause for me being suicidal.

I like the way you put that. I think I get that as well (if I understood you correctly), as I feel like because of the fact that I'm so open to suicide, any time I'm confronted with a stressor of some kind (illness, injury, anxiety, stuff I don't want to deal with, etc..), rather than just being annoyed/frustrated/bored like a normal person, it very easily turns into "There's no reason for this discomfort — if I committed suicide this wouldn't be a problem", and then those negative feelings get mixed with that idea and form just a general "ugh, life sucks, I wish I was dead" sort of mood. Though like you said, it's more of a "here and there" sort of thing, and it helps that I feel like I'm pretty good about keeping an attitude of "hey, is this negative thinking helping me? Maybe it would if I was going to commit suicide (since it might help me get to an emotional place where it'd be easier to do), but as long as I'm staying alive and not actively planning on suicide any time soon, it only makes sense for me to think in ways that are gonna reduce my discomfort, so I'm gonna change my thinking from 'life sucks, I wish I was dead' to 'what's the best thing I can do to fix this'". I feel like I used to be somewhat depressed before, but after I adopted that mindset, I feel like while I'm not exactly content with life, I don't think I really have any problems with overly long negative moods.

(I also really appreciated everything else you had to say, it was just that first part that I felt like I could respond and add to in some meaningful way)

 

[Nati]

any time I'm confronted with a stressor of some kind (illness, injury, anxiety, stuff I don't want to deal with, etc..), rather than just being annoyed/frustrated/bored like a normal person, it very easily turns into "There's no reason for this discomfort — if I committed suicide this wouldn't be a problem", and then those negative feelings get mixed with that idea and form just a general "ugh, life sucks, I wish I was dead" sort of mood.)

yup. It's pretty much "I have nothing to live for, If I had the option I'd kill myself immediately and now I also need to deal with stuff that just makes it worse?" kinda feeling.
personally since I have nothing I can do that'll satisfy me then I simply shower myself with distractions. Got my headphones on, listening to some random video while watching the tv while playing something or scrolling on my phone. The second I'm stationary then - I'm bored, bored is bad, bad is shit, this life is shit, why am I not dead…?

 

[ThisIsNotMeR]

I'm asking as someone that feels like they have problems that they don't enjoy the idea of facing or trying to resolve, but doesn't feel depressed or like they're dealing with any mental or physical issues.

Exactly my circumstances, I intend to commit suicide purely because of upcoming problems I have no intention of facing when they arrive. Then I'd really have issues.

 

[ryo the frog]

I resonate with a lot of you down here. as far as I know I'm not depressed and haven't been diagnosed with anything that'd cause or instigate suicidal thoughts. my personal life is serviceable and I'm completely capable of being happy.
My suicidal tendacies stem from my pessimistic veiws on practically everything in existence, including existence itself. I feel I'd be better off not coming into it, but obviously it's way too late for that so suicide it is!

 

[redeyepiranha]

I simply don't like living and I think it's a valid reason for suicide. My life is pretty relaxed and good, but I don't like the idea of existence, its unpredictablity, uncertainty and randomness. I heard some people said that suicidal people don't want to die, just the problems they're facing are unbearable — not my case, I want to die regardless.

 

[Graytaichi]

I have no illness but my mum died since i have zero purpose. I haven been happy ever since my mum has passed away.
I have no purpose in life now. No lust, no happiness. Living with a demon dad .