Help lonely but surrounded by people

[geo]

I have so many people around me. Family, friends, but I have no one that I can talk to. My family knows about my mental health but I don't think they really take it seriously. I definitely can't talk to my friends. So really it just feels so lonely. I'm struggling a lot, thinking about dying ALOT. It's just impossible to be happy. The more and more time goes on the less I'm starting to care about being "selfish" or "annoying". I'm just so done. I wish I could talk to people who understood me, to people who don't make me feel like a piece of shit, and make me feel like I'm being stupid and unreasonable. I hate this. I can't do it anymore. I'm so exhausted with pretending, I can't anymore and I won't anymore. This life is so meaningless and exhausting. I just want to sleep I'm so tired. Anyone else feel this way? If so how do you cope?

 

[Dovahki11n]

I have so many people around me. Family, friends, but I have no one that I can talk to. My family knows about my mental health but I don't think they really take it seriously. I definitely can't talk to my friends. So really it just feels so lonely. I'm struggling a lot, thinking about dying ALOT. It's just impossible to be happy. The more and more time goes on the less I'm starting to care about being "selfish" or "annoying". I'm just so done. I wish I could talk to people who understood me, to people who don't make me feel like a piece of shit, and make me feel like I'm being stupid and unreasonable. I hate this. I can't do it anymore. I'm so exhausted with pretending, I can't anymore and I won't anymore. This life is so meaningless and exhausting. I just want to sleep I'm so tired. Anyone else feel this way? If so how do you cope?

Yeah i feel you, I also can't talk about my mental health to anyone in real life, my friend will laugh or say something like "don't be a pussy" or "just have faith in god", and my family will think im being ungratfeul.

 

[tannhausers]

Yeah, I feel the same way.

I go through the motions, thinking that tomorrow will be better, or that if I finish something at work (pass my exams, etc.), life will get better. But that's just self-deception.

Day after day, I just go through the motions, and my thoughts just flow. Every fucking day is the same as the one before; nothing changes. I think, "What's the point of this?" "Why am I doing this?" but every time, I just keep doing it.

I'm too cowardly to do anything, or not motivated enough.

Yeah i feel you, I also can't talk about my mental health to anyone in real life, my friend will laugh or say something like "don't be a pussy" or "just have faith in god", and my family will think im being ungratfeul.

Same thing

But I also think they won't be able to help me at all. Literally. What could they possibly do? How could they possibly support me? I can't even imagine.

 

[geo]

Yeah, I feel the same way.

I go through the motions, thinking that tomorrow will be better, or that if I finish something at work (pass my exams, etc.), life will get better. But that's just self-deception.

Day after day, I just go through the motions, and my thoughts just flow. Every fucking day is the same as the one before; nothing changes. I think, "What's the point of this?" "Why am I doing this?" but every time, I just keep doing it.

I'm too cowardly to do anything, or not motivated enough.

Same thing

But I also think they won't be able to help me at all. Literally. What could they possibly do? How could they possibly support me? I can't even imagine.

I feel this exact same way, like I keep doing my exams and getting on with what I need to do but it all feels pointless and like there's no one to help me get out of this hole