Living entails so many worries

[throbinhood]

Lets say I wanted to live ? Listened to people's pleas about "think of so much good things /food/ books / experiences / conversations you'll miss out onnnn :(" and continued living for the good stuff,if life was literally just fun stuff and good food and fun friend times it would be awesome — literally no one would be suicidal,i think at least.

But here's the thing,life isnt like that,at all,I can't just do whatever I want and do just the good stuff:
" I want to live now ,I will engage in the things that make life worth living I will order some nice fast food to feast on " -- you have to think about how you'll eat the rest of the month
" I want to join a million billion clubs and fun events" -- you have to think about school
"Hm well okay maybe I'll just watch some fun Minecraft videos" -- wasting your youth
"Maybe I'll just get addicted to substances to cope with this shitty reality" --- will get you shot and you die anyway.

Even if you wanted to live it's just constant struggle after struggle ,and I'm not even impoverished or really struggling financially; these are just the things you have to have on mind if you care about your life.

 

[hihi2027]

The way I see it, life is a series of net positives and net negatives. Whether you are suicidal depends on if life is mostly a net negative, and that the bad experiences outway the good ones. No one can say if you should stay for the good, only you can answer that. Though to be fair, if one ends up on this site then the answer is pretty clear... I just hope life can get better for you so you dont have to visit this site again. I am not judging you just giving my perspective on things.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

That's the problem with life. You simply can't enjoy it; for example if I'm in the waves at the beach I am also worrying about current problems.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Lets say I wanted to live ? Listened to people's pleas about "think of so much good things /food/ books / experiences / conversations you'll miss out onnnn :(" and continued living for the good stuff,if life was literally just fun stuff and good food and fun friend times it would be awesome — literally no one would be suicidal,i think at least.

But here's the thing,life isnt like that,at all,I can't just do whatever I want and do just the good stuff:
" I want to live now ,I will engage in the things that make life worth living I will order some nice fast food to feast on " -- you have to think about how you'll eat the rest of the month
" I want to join a million billion clubs and fun events" -- you have to think about school
"Hm well okay maybe I'll just watch some fun Minecraft videos" -- wasting your youth
"Maybe I'll just get addicted to substances to cope with this shitty reality" --- will get you shot and you die anyway.

Even if you wanted to live it's just constant struggle after struggle ,and I'm not even impoverished or really struggling financially; these are just the things you have to have on mind if you care about your life.

Disclaimer: I'm not a proLifer. But I'm putting it the way it is.

Everyone in this world has problems. The poor, the rich, the middle class, the students, the doctors, the engineers, the ones in white collar job, the ones in blue collar job, teachers, etc etc

The only person that could be truly happy and problem free would be someone who is mad or has lost sense of reality. None of us want to be mad or to lose sense of reality.

Life is a balancing act.
It's more like all of us are given some pens to draw a painting on a canvas. These pens are the resources, some have a lot of resources if they are rich or may be good at finding resources, others don't have enough resources.
Everyone's painting a picture with these pens.
Interesting thing is, even if someone has one black pen, they can still create a beautiful sketch with it , more beautiful than the painting that's created by one with all the resources.

So, you can live a beautiful life even with a handful of resources if you can balance life and your emotions. In India, there are lot of poor people who barely get to eat once or twice daily. I can still see that they are smiling.

The idea is they are looking at the world from a different lens. They don't see ctb as an option. They know that they have to face it whatever comes. It may be countless days when they have no food to eat or no work to support themselves. I saw videos of 75-80 year old couple who were selling vegetables to earn some money.. Their home was a mess.

I'm not saying that we should not ctb, it's our conscious decision if we wish to continue this balancing act or quit it.

My point is, until we are alive, make the best out of your life. Be bossy, bend the reality and don't be submissive. Don't let anyone rule your mind. Don't let anyone upset you. Do what you feel like. If you are in school or college, then I'm sorry there's not a lot you can do to control some stuff. You'll have to work on those assignments and projects. (Though you can pay others to get it done for you ;)

 

[throbinhood]

The way I see it, life is a series of net positives and net negatives. Whether you are suicidal depends on if life is mostly a net negative, and that the bad experiences outway the good ones. No one can say if you should stay for the good, only you can answer that. Though to be fair, if one ends up on this site then the answer is pretty clear... I just hope life can get better for you so you dont have to visit this site again. I am not judging you just giving my perspective on things.

Im planning to ctb soon so, in a way ,I guess I will not have to visit this site again.
The only real positives in life are the ones I've had in my head , daydreams , aspirations,fantasies. Now that I've gotten this far to my current big age ,they alone aren't enough to comfort me anymore — along the way they just kinda seem like delusions. So I've had to deal with the enshttified reality and the fact that I fr can't do anything about it.
And the fact that a human life consists of so much waste and ecological guilt , the fact that by just existing and getting by youre contributing to child slavery somewhere you don't see.
No treats I can't afford and no spontaneous trips to beaches or museums,no amount of fun Minecraft videos can really compensate for the life that I don't like living is playing a part in making everything shittier.

 

[throbinhood]

The way I see it, life is a series of net positives and net negatives. Whether you are suicidal depends on if life is mostly a net negative, and that the bad experiences outway the good ones. No one can say if you should stay for the good, only you can answer that. Though to be fair, if one ends up on this site then the answer is pretty clear... I just hope life can get better for you so you dont have to visit this site again. I am not judging you just giving my perspective on things.

Im planning to ctb soon so, in a way ,I guess I will not have to visit this site again.
The only real positives in life are the ones I've had in my head , daydreams , aspirations,fantasies. Now that I've gotten this far to my current big age ,they alone aren't enough to comfort me anymore — along the way they just kinda seem like delusions. So I've had to deal with the enshttified reality and the fact that I fr can't do anything about it.
And the fact that a human life consists of so much waste and ecological guilt , the fact that by just existing and getting by youre contributing to child slavery somewhere you don't see.
No treats I can't afford and no spontaneous trips to beaches or museums,no amount of fun Minecraft videos can really compensate for the life that I don't like living is playing a part in making everything shittier

 

[starboy2k]

The only real positives in life are the ones I've had in my head , daydreams , aspirations,fantasies. Now that I've gotten this far to my current big age ,they alone aren't enough to comfort me anymore — along the way they just kinda seem like delusions.

this is the fucking worst. realizing that life will never be as good as your daydreams or fantasies will make you want to die asap.

 

[fleurdelune]

i know... it's just too much work i'm not willing to put in. and worrying all the time hurts. some people are better equipped for life than others (me lol), i guess

still -- try to take care? <3