list of things i still "enjoy"

[finish.me]

1. spending time with my boyfriend
2. masturbating
3. watching my favorite youtubers (only about 3 left)

honorable mentions DRINKING, but i can't do it often anymore because i live with freaks who would 'kill me' if they ever catch me drunk. another would be eating if my appetite ever returns and finally playing games but i don't really like doing that unless im playing them with my boyfriend. i used to like watching shows but they bore me now

all of these things still feel numbed out and empty compared to how i used to feel. theres literally nothing else that interests or entertains me in this world and my brain is too damaged to change so i really think as soon as these get stale (and they already are) i'm probably going to have to kill myself. otherwise living would just be constant. fucking. unending. hellish. pain.
I'm straight up forcing myself to stay awake so i can wake up tomorrow knowing my boyfriend is back from work. every single second between now and when he gets back is spent in restless annoyance

 

[superbad]

I don't know what I even enjoy anymore. I mostly kill time with videogames or youtube true-crime videos.

 

[freeguy21]

I enjoy playing videogames, eating Pringles and talk with my grandfather

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Sleeping.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I enjoy reading and becoming as intellectual as possible.

 

[Apel]

Now I mostly spend time playing video games, alone or with my last friend

 

[enau]

music, sometimes.But even that, im fed up, even the beauty ..contact with animal sometimes.I used to love all artsy stuff, and have a little talent myself, i had the broken dream to be artist and create with and for people i love, bu im alone, a super freak, autistic, unable to communicate, transgender in the closet , weirdo, i tried , dont have any friend, only people used me et have distraction , play of me.. and all of that, it dosent interest me in the slightest .... even that, all the art nature, beauty, ... all the all "make suffering pretty, meaningfull, "i can't stand it now.. there is just pure pain of existing.. but music are sometimes, blessing instant

 

[FuneralCry]

I never experience enjoyment. Sometimes there are things that make me feel a little bit better such as being out in nature. I mostly just look forward to sleep. I just try to distract myself during the day by watching TV shows and things like that. I mostly just feel empty. I am tired of it all. Sometimes I am unable to distract myself and I just overthink everything. I cannot do this for many more decades. I can relate to the feeling of nothing being interesting.

 

[NasiGoreng]

1. Drinking
2. Food
3. Sleep

 

[Tamz]

Reading
Sleeping