The only half decent options I have with which to CTB are hanging and amitriptyline, which was prescribed for my chronic nerve pain.
I would prefer the latter, as it seems more peaceful than suffocating to death. I hate hanging, have tried partial unsuccessfully a number of times.
Also I can't help but imagine that it would be a more interesting way to die- I'd probably trip balls in my final moments...
But I want to protect myself against failure. So I'm thinking I go to my Spot then take the amitriptyline OD. If it works, great. If not, I get up, tie my hands behind my back, and hang myself full suspension using a noose I've tied before ODing. I chose the spot carefully so that I step off a slope and feet can't touch the ground- there'll be no backing out.
So, to the question: what are the chances that I won't be able to achieve hanging due to a failed OD? That I'll be too weak and/or delerious to stand up and hang?
The Spot I've chosen is deliberately difficult to access, lowering the chances of my being discovered. If I am quite incapacitated due to a failed attempt, I doubt I'll be able to stumble out into the open to obtain assistance, leaving me to suffer in isolation until I finally die from the OD or starve etc.
I could maybe bring a cell phone to call for help if I fail, however I'm not sure if I'll even be able to make a call in that state...
If it is likely that a failed attempt will result in physical incapacitation, I could instead take the overdose then stand with my head in the noose until the overdose takes effect and I slump down and hang. I'd rather avoid this if I can though; dying solely from OD is far preferable to me.
I would prefer the latter, as it seems more peaceful than suffocating to death. I hate hanging, have tried partial unsuccessfully a number of times.
Also I can't help but imagine that it would be a more interesting way to die- I'd probably trip balls in my final moments...
But I want to protect myself against failure. So I'm thinking I go to my Spot then take the amitriptyline OD. If it works, great. If not, I get up, tie my hands behind my back, and hang myself full suspension using a noose I've tied before ODing. I chose the spot carefully so that I step off a slope and feet can't touch the ground- there'll be no backing out.
So, to the question: what are the chances that I won't be able to achieve hanging due to a failed OD? That I'll be too weak and/or delerious to stand up and hang?
The Spot I've chosen is deliberately difficult to access, lowering the chances of my being discovered. If I am quite incapacitated due to a failed attempt, I doubt I'll be able to stumble out into the open to obtain assistance, leaving me to suffer in isolation until I finally die from the OD or starve etc.
I could maybe bring a cell phone to call for help if I fail, however I'm not sure if I'll even be able to make a call in that state...
If it is likely that a failed attempt will result in physical incapacitation, I could instead take the overdose then stand with my head in the noose until the overdose takes effect and I slump down and hang. I'd rather avoid this if I can though; dying solely from OD is far preferable to me.
