Like the Stone Roses song I think this is the one (crisis) I've waited for

[BluesRunTheGame]

Just live in hell for three months after living in a moderate hell for three years! That's fine! You live in a rich, wholesome society! You can get through it! Fuck off can I; this might just be the one I've been waiting for (to tip me over the edge - of Beachy Head - metaphorically or maybe not).

 

[Judy Garland]

It sounds like you're having a rough night. I am too. This whole weekend has been rough and didn't feel like a holiday weekend at all. Everyone with their loving families enjoying the cool weather makes me feel like I'm just the biggest loser. And I am, for nobody wants to be with me. I've made too many mistakes in my life. I'm a monster. I hope things get better for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it is horrible how things can easily get so much worse in life. This life really is hell. and it seems as though it is impossible to escape from suffering. Beachy Head does sound like a nice place to die at, but the thought of jumping is terrifying to me. I hope that you find relief from what you are going through.