Life.....doesn't get better.....for some

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I do, really believe that the term "life gets better" applies to some people. I feel for some, if they do the work, they can get a semblance of happiness. But for some of us, no matter what, our fates are sealed

I, feel this is true. I feel it is real. My brother, he dost care. He just hit me and is not in revenge mode

Please do not recommend I tell anyone like police or anything. My words have done nothing for me throughout life

I just want to die hopefully one day

Knowing the happiness that I wont achieve here can be achieved elsewhere

Because even if.....even if I were to "heal" as they say

I'll probably only heal till im like 40. Im 22 now and, I just dont want to wait that long

 

[SpottedPanda]

Sorry to hear about the problem with your brother. I usually live with the looming threat of violence. It's not pleasant.

I was in a bad way at 18. I was living well at 25. At 37 I'm in another rut, only I've given up enthusiasm, even though things could change.

 

[lostangel]

I do, really believe that the term "life gets better" applies to some people. I feel for some, if they do the work, they can get a semblance of happiness. But for some of us, no matter what, our fates are sealed

I, feel this is true. I feel it is real. My brother, he dost care. He just hit me and is not in revenge mode

Please do not recommend I tell anyone like police or anything. My words have done nothing for me throughout life

I just want to die hopefully one day

Knowing the happiness that I wont achieve here can be achieved elsewhere

Because even if.....even if I were to "heal" as they say

I'll probably only heal till im like 40. Im 22 now and, I just dont want to wait that long

I do believe that some people can turn their life around but not everyone. Some people are not meant to live in this world. Life is unfair for a plethora of reasons. People who are not suicidal will never know what we go through. I don't even think at age 40 I will be healed if I'm around by then.

 

[terry_a_davis]

@DeathIsTheWayOut99 why won't you consider involving the police?

 

[Acerakis]

@DeathIsTheWayOut99 why won't you consider involving the police?

Implication I got was that they had tried and nothing came of it.

 

[terry_a_davis]

Implication I got was that they had tried and nothing came of it.

Do you know what country this is? Most countries in the Wests police forces take domestic abuse more seriously now. In my country there are procedures to complain about police inaction. I would try again, maybe a different & better police person would deal with it this time?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I have my own personal reasons for not involving the police. Id rather not discuss it. I get that many of you are probably curious but, I've given up on help and thats a personal choice I made.

I do believe that some people can turn their life around but not everyone. Some people are not meant to live in this world. Life is unfair for a plethora of reasons. People who are not suicidal will never know what we go through. I don't even think at age 40 I will be healed if I'm around by then.

I agree. I knew I should have been an abortion

In a way im kinda thinking of just....leaving. jUst getting up one might and leaving. Never coming back. Leaving my piece of shit family and maybe getting hit by a care or something. I dunno