Let us make another poor attempt at finding our happiness this year

[ctwc]

For the vast majority of us it won't get us anywhere, neither will I. For some of us, <happiness> isn't a thing. For another subset of us, it, for whatever reason, simply cannot.

But our good wishes for each other are as real as they get, are they not?

And say the traditional words. And smile inside, just for a moment.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

Live on and try to get myself out of the Hell others put me in. If all else fails, I always have a bus to catch. Until then... live on Amen

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I see no happiness in something as evil and torturous as existence, this existence is an abomination that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I don't get what's so happy about existing beings punished by being forced into this deeply undesirable, painful existence that there was never a need for at all burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existing beings are tortured in agony every second and it's just so horrific to me.

I'll always see existence as the problem, existence is a mistake and simply being conscious is so unbearably torturous to me, I don't see any benefit to suffering in this horrific reality tortured by this existence just to face the extreme agony of old age, it's just so horrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long just to end up way more tortured, to suffer for another year in this existence is so terrible and dreadful, all that existence ever causes is so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so torturous to exist, non-existence is all I see as positive, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific anti-suicide world where wanting peace from all this is a crime.

 

[magsx1]

Gonna remove everything that destroyed my happiness this year; Alcohol and Social Media. Social media more so, because it made me feel awful and suicidal about my flaws and where I was in life. In this world, people enjoy trampling on those that they deem slightly under them for likes, a self-esteem boost or even a short chuckle. Human nature is disgusting, and you can really see it shine on Social Media. TikTok, Instagram, Reddit.

I'm removing all of that and I'm just going to basically touch grass this year and do my best to support people on this forum. I don't think I'm ever going to browse the Suicide Discussion forum because I'm honestly not planning on doing it, but at the same time there's no place on this internet that can be so openly real about this topic without downvotes, bans or empty platitudes.

I'm already going on walks three times a day. I feel pretty optimistic about 2026.

 

[amor.dor]

To me, happiness is a form of rhetoric — the notion that at some point we will find something worthwhile. But every moment is a fleeting instant that slips away, like water through our hands. So I understand that seeking happiness is a leap of faith. I think it's valid, but I also know it may bring me nothing. That's just my view.

 

[ctwc]

To me, happiness is a form of rhetoric — the notion that at some point we will find something worthwhile. But every moment is a fleeting instant that slips away, like water through our hands. So I understand that seeking happiness is a leap of faith. I think it's valid, but I also know it may bring me nothing. That's just my view.

Tbh our whole life is a fleeting instant, whether you live to your 80s or you CTBed yesterday. In the end there's not much else.

For the time being I press on just to see what the full package of life has to offer. As much as I don't need to live any longer, I also don't feel the need to reach the other stop right now. It's like when you pay for a combo meal, you don't ditch the other 2 dishes if you don't like the first thing you bite into.

My happiness is one that can't be a thing, it's a tiresome cycle of seeking for something only to realize it doesn't exist, but don't want to let go because... there's just nothing else.

For whatever reason, I'm still here.

 

[amor.dor]

Tbh our whole life is a fleeting instant, whether you live to your 80s or you CTBed yesterday. In the end there's not much else.

For the time being I press on just to see what the full package of life has to offer. As much as I don't need to live any longer, I also don't feel the need to reach the other stop right now. It's like when you pay for a combo meal, you don't ditch the other 2 dishes if you don't like the first thing you bite into.

My happiness is one that can't be a thing, it's a tiresome cycle of seeking for something only to realize it doesn't exist, but don't want to let go because... there's just nothing else.

For whatever reason, I'm still here.

In a way, I feel we are all like Frankenstein's creature when he says: 'Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it.'

We know that life hurts us, but it seems that we live our lives as if we were suffering from a syndrome of estolcomo.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suppose I think even trying to tread water takes a lot of effort when you'd rather just sink. So, even if we're not aiming for joy, just aiming to be functional is going to be a stretch. But- that's my aim really. To continue to function until I don't need to and then to put effort into getting out of here.

 

[ctwc]

It really do be like that. Don't have the will to live, but also don't have the energy to seek an end.

Some days we make an achievement of being able to wake up and get something done. Some other days the waking up is followed by "here we go again".

The first day of the year was as pointless as any other. But I'm not mad, just the same usual kind of empty.

 

[LittleSunshine]

My whole has been about survival anyways.
The past year has been the extreme, one I barely survived. From now on, I'm living in the moment and try to enjoy even more all the little things that are still positive. But I'm no longer worried about the future nor busy with the past. Will see how it goes.

 

[ctwc]

That's the spirit :)