less suicidal now? reasons to live.

[mouseteacup]

I think I've realised something:

I still don't see the point in living, really, but I've had a lot of people tell me I've had a positive impact on their life. I don't want to go into too much detail since I plan on writing and I don't want to be identifiable, but I've found some reasons why I can't die yet. I feel like if my body doesn't take me out, I will eventually, but it's not the time for me just yet. I have things I want to help change in the world before I go out. Things I want to do before I die. There's other people I want to live for.

 

[Anhaedra]

Im kinda in the same position. Life still doesnt have a point, but my parents and siblings would be devastated if I ctb. So here i am, got no reasons to stay other than that.

 

[J&L383]

It's kind of one day a time, and look for the few moments that make living just a little bit worthwhile. Death will come eventually, I'm trying to just keep going for those little things.

 

[puppybrained]

for me, as much as i resent it i have people who want me alive, and i don't want to disappoint them that badly.
other than that, sometimes just being too lazy/stubborn/scared to finally do it is a fine reason to live.

 

[AgentAlaniKelso]

Some days I reach the point where I'm done and I have the access to the means to make an "expeditious exit".

My reason? My sister. She is so broken - our mom is dead, our dad is persona non grata. She hasn't even began to scratch the surface of the trauma we suffered in our childhood due to substance addiction, food insecurity, unstable housing, mentally unwell mother.... If I were gone, it would destroy my sister. Some days, that's the only thing that stops me. But every single time, it has been enough. Even when you're in the darkest part of your mind, one reason to stay is enough.

 

[wannabe_sage-san]

for me is stubborness. i resent the people around me who continue be part of the system that ruined me (institutional religion). the only problem is i'm not stubborn enough, so i just wander through life without any firm reason or purpose.