qwert3948
Student
- Apr 24, 2023
- 145
recently began thinking i am not actually interested in traumatizing my family, so.
i thought maybe dying in a hotel would be less bad since, if a stranger finds you they are not atached to you at all. plus, in my country violence is common experience so i'd expect a stranger to care less. specially older people, but it's a gamble. i probably will still traumatize someone no matter what
my main plan is hanging in my room, so my mom would have a pretty shitty view. even if i did SN, or died lying down, i think it still would be quite terrible to have them find me, access if i'm dead, touching and staring at my dead body etc. Maybe just hearing the news from a hospital would be less shitty? xP i don't know.
i thought about covering myself while hanging so they wouldn't have to look at me but again, they would have to access my body anyway. maybe i just need to come to terms with it, but i'd be curious to know if there are any damage control i can do in this case
i thought maybe dying in a hotel would be less bad since, if a stranger finds you they are not atached to you at all. plus, in my country violence is common experience so i'd expect a stranger to care less. specially older people, but it's a gamble. i probably will still traumatize someone no matter what
my main plan is hanging in my room, so my mom would have a pretty shitty view. even if i did SN, or died lying down, i think it still would be quite terrible to have them find me, access if i'm dead, touching and staring at my dead body etc. Maybe just hearing the news from a hospital would be less shitty? xP i don't know.
i thought about covering myself while hanging so they wouldn't have to look at me but again, they would have to access my body anyway. maybe i just need to come to terms with it, but i'd be curious to know if there are any damage control i can do in this case
