Venting last reason not to ctb gone

[crybaby420]

i have a partner of 2.5 years who i've planned to marry for a while now but always worried that it would be worse to marry them or get engaged and then ctb so figured i would either have to get it over with or never do it which is scary because i've wanted to for over 14 years now.

well recently i've really been wanting to, we live in an apartment together with our cats and my only reason not to was that i was paying half the bills and didn't want to leave them with financial burden. but then i lost my job and now have no income so if they're on their own for bills anyway it makes sense to have one less mouth to feed.

it was different when i was contributing 50/50 but now that i'm home all day every day (which i was anyway because i was wfh) and don't have any income and can't help with bills i may as well be gone

 

[last-counting-days]

you can try for a new job if job market is fine. or else spend some last days with fun and excitement then you can do CBT.

 

[strangelove]

This is a common place in a capitalist society . I've been there and a lot of people that I know have as well. You shouldn't take your life over something that can be repaired. Jobs come and go..