Since being really suicidal in the past couple of months do you all ever find that each meal you eat thinking it's going to be the last meal you eat? I've been thinking this every time I've been eating.
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Mist
Member
- Feb 23, 2020
- 18
I personally don't, but that's because I know exactly what I want my last meal to be. That being Phở Bò (beef pho) with fish sauce and sriracha.
justfloating
Student
- Feb 13, 2020
- 172
I knew that I wanted a specific donut before I died, but whenever I have the urge I'm normally also in a period of not eating. though now you mention it boy do I want to have Chinese takeout one last time before I CTB
Largeletters
Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
- 640
Yes, definitely. I was thinking about that earlier today in fact, and I was thinking to myself, "damn, if this is all I eat today, this is not my ideal last meal."
socrates
I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
- Dec 3, 2019
- 303
I don't think I'd ever CTB in the spur of the moment. There is just so much that could go wrong, for me and the people I leave behind. So I would know when my last meal would be. The question is what would be your last meal.
mesohappy
Cat piss sammich??
- Jan 10, 2020
- 674
Not only meals.The last hot shower,the last walk with my dog,my last drive,my last conversation.It has almost made me savor living more if that makes any sense.It feels like when Im resigned to ctb,it helps me appreciate living.When Im running around trying to "get busy with living",then I become miserable again.My brain is all over the place lately.
90sAesthetics
Pornhub-verified schizo. My head is a DialUp Oasis
- Jan 8, 2020
- 38
Very rarely. Usually it's a relief from the hell that is PTSD and Schizophrenia. I get to absorb the meal and focus on how good it is.
If I had to pick a last meal, it'd probably be... fuck, I don't actually know. I'm not much of an eater, I love me some energy drinks tho. Energy drinks + a drug cocktail haha
Melkus2020
Bad Character
- Feb 19, 2020
- 217
Last meal for me?? I guess a drink of SN. Sweetest taste on the planet earth.
autumnal
Enlightened
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,950
socrates
I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
- Dec 3, 2019
- 303
You eat pills, with out any milk! Your to tough for this club
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