Last few months

[Itsbeenalongtime]

So I've posted before about intending to ctb in April.
Until then I'm continuing with my life as usual, trying to minimize suspicion and make sure I don't create a mess if I fail.
The issue with this is that means I still have to continue doing all the things that stress me out too. I just want to stop studying or answering emails. Cancel expensive therapy to save me and my family money.
It's so frustrating that I can't just spend my last few months doing the things I love with no fear, no stress, and end it all with a great party to say goodbye.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would be frustrated. I wish we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and then we could tell others in advance about our decision and then just exit peacefully. Suicide should not be so stigmatised. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

i have to sit here at 3am making sure my last wishes and will are as comprehensive as possible then get up tomorrow for an appointment and study for an exam i hope i never have to take, its ridiculous