Killing myself before turning 20

[RestlessTaiga]

Right now I'm 19, and I'm gonna make a promise to myself, If my life continues being awful until March 3, I'm catching the bus, 7 months to change SOMETHING, even a slimmer spark of hope, I'm going to try getting a job, getting more friends, get into a relationship, interact with my hobbies again, try to quit porn, Maybe even find a career path for myself, really anything, and if I don't see any change by then, I'm just gonna give up completely, because I can't anymore, I can't live like that any longer, can't live like an outcast.

I have to do it before 20, 20 is the age that you have to do something, right? Have a plan for the future? A job? A relationship? Something figured out, or at least getting there, but I didn't achieve anything like that, and probably won't be able to, so I'm just gonna die before that, don't want to be a waste of seed anymore.

 

[Soumatou]

20 is the age that you have to do something, right? Have a plan for the future? A job? A relationship? Something figured out, or at least getting there

Sounds like some bullshit checkpoint imposed by society. Good luck trying to improve yourself though, we're cheering for you!

 

[ctb_warrior]

Right now I'm 19, and I'm gonna make a promise to myself, If my life continues being awful until March 3, I'm catching the bus, 7 months to change SOMETHING, even a slimmer spark of hope, I'm going to try getting a job, getting more friends, get into a relationship, interact with my hobbies again, try to quit porn, Maybe even find a career path for myself, really anything, and if I don't see any change by then, I'm just gonna give up completely, because I can't anymore, I can't live like that any longer, can't live like an outcast.

I have to do it before 20, 20 is the age that you have to do something, right? Have a plan for the future? A job? A relationship? Something figured out, or at least getting there, but I didn't achieve anything like that, and probably won't be able to, so I'm just gonna die before that, don't want to be a waste of seed anymore.

I wish you all the love, luck and success in your goals,

 

[booplesnoot34]

I promised myself I'd die by my 18th birthday. I'm almost 32 now. Still wish I'd kept my promise.

 

[RestlessTaiga]

I promised myself I'd die by my 18th birthday. I'm almost 32 now. Still wish I'd kept my promise.

I'm really worried about that, but I'm gonna really try to keep this promise. Even better if I die earlier

 

[glombpert]

honestly man if you genuely want to try to improve you cant think like that when i was in school i told myself every day that i wouldnt make it past 20 and while im still only 21 having that mindset for so long kept me from doing so many things i should of so if you truly want to change id stop trying to make 20 a dead line and just not worry about the time and focus on the small wins you do get 20 is still young youve only been an adult for a year so you got time to figure it out.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Right now I'm 19, and I'm gonna make a promise to myself, If my life continues being awful until March 3, I'm catching the bus, 7 months to change SOMETHING, even a slimmer spark of hope, I'm going to try getting a job, getting more friends, get into a relationship, interact with my hobbies again, try to quit porn, Maybe even find a career path for myself, really anything, and if I don't see any change by then, I'm just gonna give up completely, because I can't anymore, I can't live like that any longer, can't live like an outcast.

I have to do it before 20, 20 is the age that you have to do something, right? Have a plan for the future? A job? A relationship? Something figured out, or at least getting there, but I didn't achieve anything like that, and probably won't be able to, so I'm just gonna die before that, don't want to be a waste of seed anymore.

It breaks my heart when I see people so young suffer so much

 

[cr7]

ive made like 3 of those deadlines for myself and none of them were fulfilled. my new tactic is just waiting for the day im too miserable so i do it on a whim. i hope youve completely moved past sasu and your suffering by march 3.

 

[wehamuho]

Sounds like some bullshit checkpoint imposed by society. Good luck trying to improve yourself though, we're cheering for you!

yes man so much like i was barely mobile since a child but i shouldnt be dead cuz kids cant understand pain hurts & theyre suffering?? cant value incurable illness?

 

[tt5515]

Hey, I'm 20 also and I haven't got it figured out at all. My dad actually was a drug addict until he was 26, working low-end jobs and now at 50 has a thriving career and is content in life. We are all broke and confused at our age, and I promise you that you aren't in a competition with anybody at all. I hope you can stay strong, take everyday step by step and focus on the small wins. What are your hobbies? I literally only play video games HAHA, and it sucks trying to make friends after graduating high-school because i literally have lost like 90 percent of mine.

 

[chillino]

Into the wild

 

[blacksand]

That's too young for age related deadlines, I'll be 31 next week and have a lot of regret around how I was sure I'd missed out on X and Y in early 20s and how much time I kept pissing away at that point.

 

[wehamuho]

That's too young for age related deadlines, I'll be 31 next week and have a lot of regret around how I was sure I'd missed out on X and Y in early 20s and how much time I kept pissing away at that point.

i wouldnt make a 20 yo wait to get older w/ that suffering just cuz. itd be in my conscience

 

[quiet-rabbit]

I of course support whatever choice feels right for you, but I certainly disagree that anyone can or should have anything figured out by 20! I found that 18-22 to be the most miserable time of my life, by far. You are still carrying all of the wounds and learnings of your childhood, but don't quite have the autonomy you need in life to take care and make big changes. You're stuck in this terrible limbo. It is certainly possible that the pain will never change, and I do believe lots of change happens at this time in one's life so I look forward to what the next seven months brings you!

 

[passthisnote]

Right now I'm 19, and I'm gonna make a promise to myself, If my life continues being awful until March 3, I'm catching the bus, 7 months to change SOMETHING, even a slimmer spark of hope, I'm going to try getting a job, getting more friends, get into a relationship, interact with my hobbies again, try to quit porn, Maybe even find a career path for myself, really anything, and if I don't see any change by then, I'm just gonna give up completely, because I can't anymore, I can't live like that any longer, can't live like an outcast.

I have to do it before 20, 20 is the age that you have to do something, right? Have a plan for the future? A job? A relationship? Something figured out, or at least getting there, but I didn't achieve anything like that, and probably won't be able to, so I'm just gonna die before that, don't want to be a waste of seed anymore.

ong i'm 19 too and in like 6 months when i turn 20 like right before ima be gone this life stuff ain't for me can't even do anything i want after 20 so what's the point frl im not tryna work and be a slave all day i'd rather js not be alive then get my free time and youth taken away

 

[Eriktf]

Deadlines like this to ctb is honestly stupid.
You might have plenty of resons to ctb but the last drop that pushed you to ctb shouldn't be turning 20