Kill myself or just not be alive?

[Tintypographer]

I feel so down and trapped and therapy is totally wasted on me. I don't think I want to commit suicide. I just want to not be alive. I'm less looking for a way to kill myself as much as I wish I could simply not wake up. Simply cease. I wish no one could ask me for things, I didn't have to worry about the future or stress and that I could just disappear. Suicide is scary to me. I wish I could just skip dying and simply not be alive. Does anyone else feel that way?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I feel that way all the time. It would be so much easier if I could vanish completely.

 

[ecmnesia]

not anymore, but I did once.

I hope you can get past this, no matter where it leads you, cause unfortunately, thats unachievable

 

[Nymph]

I feel like not being alive/not waking up is kinda similar but just wastes resources. So I'd rather just ctb

 

[shy]

Ending it yourself is scary, I'm still waiting for a gas leak or fire to help me ctb while I sleep.

 

[LonelyDude15]

Unfortunately you can't disappear without dying though.

 

[Tintypographer]

There was that snap thing from marvel but that looked like a lot of work

 

[EraseRewind]

I've always hoped and yes prayed to not wake up, I sometimes feel that I've had enough of this rollercoaster ride. I've tried ctb a few times before and it is scary to get so low that it becomes easy to swallow masses of tablets. I have felt as though it's getting closer all the time because I'm just so tired of putting the act on and knowing that everything I try will come to nothing, this is because of prior actions that got me in trouble, all my own doing again. I can't get any decent method because we're locked down here.

I feel that for me ctb is inevitable, because natural causes ain't going to happen.

 

[sadworld]

We were born, sadly. That's why we can't skip the dying part... I wish I could also just fall asleep and never wake up.

 

[Weary Soul]

My dream is to fall asleep and cease to exist.

<3

 

[ecmnesia]

this is childish, but not long I would lie on the garden all day staring at the sky and wishing to be a cloud. that'd be the perfect existence for me, sincerely.