Venting Just told to go get myself killed

[_Kaira_]

Title. I'm now at peace with my thoughts.

 

[Belaya Noch]

I think the same as Alan Hollinghurst, "We should not confuse honesty with brutality". Nobody should say that to anyone.

 

[summers]

Sorry to hear someone said that to you, friend. I mean, if someone said that to me, I would hand them a gun and/or knife and say "Have at it." and smile :) Actually, I've done that once, unfortunately, they didn't...

 

[_Kaira_]

"You took it out of context." Hah.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

"You took it out of context." Hah.

It's always a joke until it's not. Don't worry though, Karma is a bitch.

 

[_Kaira_]

It's always a joke until it's not. Don't worry though, Karma is a bitch.

I wish he was saying it as a joke. He said it cause I was being 'too negative' and he was trying to make a point since I want to die so badly...

 

[Huntfish34]

Shitt,. I'm sorry to hear that. Nobody should be talked to like that.

Like Brick said though... Karma is a bitch.

Hope you're day gets better.

 

[_Kaira_]

We were having a decent conversation. But like usual it went from 0-100 really quick.

I immediately tried to disengage and ignore him. But as I said before, nothing good comes out of me being anything but 'positive'.


In my post history, I have already said he knows how I feel and is quite aware of my thoughts on suicide. In his words. We can pick our suffering. This site is dangerous because we're all sick, I don't want to try or get help, nor have I ever tried. And since I want to die so badly, I shouldn't be here (homeless and not in this house) and go get myself killed!

I don't know what other context I was supposed to get out of that...


So you know what. I'm so tired of being misunderstood so badly. I wish I could plan my CBT :( I'm in so much emotional pain right now.

 

[Cherrypea]

He was in a position of anger and has no empathy and no understanding. It's a crushing thing to hear others say that even when it's what we want ourselves. Sending love xxx
My partner always asks why I only see the negatives, again it's no understanding of depression and emotional pain xx