Venting Just having a polite mental breakdown over here.

[Deleted member 17949]

This is too much, way more than I can handle in terms of stress. I want to scream, I feel like I need to cut myself or hit myself or something. Suicidal thoughts completely dominate every single moment I have. They are on my mind constantly. I spend hours alone staring at the spot where I want to hang myself telling myself not to do anything. I feel like I'm going to be sick. Every time I hear my parents say anything to me I just want to throw up and run away. I can't handle pretending to be even remotely normal when the only thought in my mind most of the time is killing myself. The stress is just too intense for me. I need to leave, it's just too much and I can't do it. I'm completely ready to hang myself, I want to do it as soon as possible.

 

[rhiino]

I can relate to that. I know how it feels when you cannot stand being alive anymore and the mere existence is excruciating.

 

[x-Ace-x]

I feel you and sorry what you have to endure

Nothing helps, you just think about killing yourself as soon as possible.