Venting Just got discharged (Hello again SASU)

[PlasticFace]

Please excuse the embarrassingly long length of this post. I haven't been active in forever and am just venting.

I'm fucking falling apart, seriously. I just got discharged last night from the hospital. It's so embarrassing too. I was reaching out for help from a friend and they called an ambulance to my home. I feel so betrayed and taken advantage of. She hasn't tried to contact me ever since so I know she doesn't really care. I just wanted someone to listen to me. I NEVER have anyone to listen to me.

I was taken against my will to the emergency room because I had some self-tended-to gashes. They were fine by the way. Absolutely could've healed on their own. Then I heard them talk about "yellow pod". I know ALL about the yellow pod. They throw people in there that they want to forget about. Drunks, drug addicts, suicidals. It's inhumane.

They gave me two options. One, I can stay there in a dirty room with a feeding tube in my face, IV, beeping monitors, and flashlights in my eye every night. Or two, they practically force me into therapy and let nurses come to MY home to babysit me for a couple hours. How demeaning!!!

I settled for weekly nurse visits and online therapy so I don't have to leave my home. I could not stand another moment in that zoo-like hospital. If you know anything about me from other posts, you know that I can't fucking STAND being looked at like an oddity. When I was a kid and hospitalized, they let nursing students watch me through the door window without my consent. It was terrifying.

I'm typing this embarrassing post from my living room floor. I've been here for hours now. No reason to move. No matter what, I know I'm being monitored. I'm hopeless.

 

[darksouls]

welcome back to sasu
I am very sorry for your situation
sending you hugs and love

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so dreadful to me, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably, I see it as so cruel how they just cause more suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[SailorBlue]

Welcome back
I'm so sorry you had to go through this experience. Like you, I had a terrible experience in a psychiatric hospital.
They are often incapable of caring for those who are suffering.

 

[bankai]

The hell. What's wrong with that stupid friend of yours? I would have never done that to you. I would have just listened and shut the Fuck up.

Disgusting individuals. I've said it several times on this site. We can't rely too much on these people in our life. I mean, even when I talk to my mother or any other family members, it's always about the weather or my job or stupid mundane stuff.

What happened to you this time isn't right. What happened to you when you were a kid either wasn't right. I'm so sorry

All of us deserve autonomy and complete say in our own lives and over our own lives. Anyone taking that away from us is evil.

 

[spero_meliora]

I'm so sorry that you had to experience this, and I also question how much of a "friend" they really are... if they haven't checked on you since, it sounds like what they did was just to have a clear conscience rather than help.

I've also had my autonomy taken away before like that when I was younger, and there's nothing more dehumanising or humiliating.

the community here will always listen to you vent or if you need to reach out.

 

[Unknown21]

Hey! I remember you, welcome back, friend.