Just got an internship and i want to ctb

[Wakawaka]

Is something wrong with me. I practically begged the agency im working with to find me a remote job and after they said they have many remote offerings i got happy because i thought maybe i could make this work. i havent worked since covid hit, im constantly in and out of jobs due to hating them./lateness/my mental health. i have sleep problems and dont work anywhere that wont let me work during the afternoon. i have cuts all over and have to wear heavy clothing everywhere i go. and its currently the summer/90 degrees. just found out that i have a 9 hour shift in person, 7-4.

i feel so crushed

getting up at 5 am with barely any sleep, traveling across the city, my shirt/clothe soaked from the long sleeves and sweat. sitting in that fucking place for 9 hours and then walking home in the sun. 4 hours to compose myself before i have to go to bed and pray i can get 7 hours of sleep. it feels like my life is over. and im going to be sleep deprived and overheated the whole time. i had to work one of my last jobs with a hoodie on

im not meant for this system/world. if i dont take the internship i get dropped from the program, the job training didnt offer any certificants so im not sure how well i could find another job, and they wouldnt help me find another one either

 

[Huntfish34]

Nahh, not at all.. Theres nothing wrong with you in my opinion.. I understand that you have been Trying to get, and Keep a job for the long term.. Which just hasnt worked out for you. Its not so Simple or Easy for all the " norm " ppl out there in society.

I cant relate to Everything you said but... Im Sorry you are going through and having to deal with this.

I often Pray / ask that I may wake up on time for work.. And I Usually do, But whyy? I hate my Fckn job and the 2 Dickheads that are on top... That I have to answer to Every day for (whatever) reason. Seriously makes me Sick to my stomach I could Almost.... Throw up right now. What a Fckn Bullshit fake Fucked Off society we live in. Its certainly not the Only reason.. But Damnt , my resentments at work have driven me further and Further into the dark abyss and makes me want to off myself. Damnt Fck. Idk anymore, Im Lost..

I wish you the best,

Butch

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds exhausting what you have to experience, especially as it's in the heat which makes everything so much harder. Living really can be painful, I wish you well.