Jealous

[Enoughnow]

Does anybody else get jealous when they hear of a successful suicide I'm hoping to go on sn tonight im so fucking desperate found out I'm being discharged from cpn today been begging for help for ages and they genuinely don't give a fuck
Ask for help
What absolute horse shit truth is they have no intention of helping and they don't give a fuck
Can't wait to die hopefully this time it wi be successful

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I envy everyone who has passed away. They are free from their suffering and they do not have to endure this pointless life anymore. I particularly envy those who died from hanging as they had the courage that I do not have. They must have been desperate and determined. Whenever I hear of someone ctb I always wish that it is me.

 

[keitaro]

i do envy those who get to pass away peacefully. i have given up on getting "help". it feels pointless now.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm not really jealous although I can 100% understand the sentiment

 

[rainwillneverstop]

I don't know if I envy those whos lives has brought them to such action, even though my own is on it's way if not already there.
I still don't feel jealous however.

 

[WaitingAllMyLife]

Yes. I also envy those who die of other means like drive by shootings, car accidents, cancer. They are all better than being alive.

 

[chloramine]

Yeah, not even just suicides. I feel bad for feeling jealous because like. Someone died. I would just really like to be not alive.