I've started to record myself reporting on every thing that has happened in my life every day until the day I die.

[ExtraordinaryDefeat_]

That way, I hope my family will take some time to listen to this so they can understand my pain better. What do you think about this? I think I should unravel every issue of mine possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I would see this as being a good idea. Maybe it might give those left behind some closure if they are able to understand what brought you to the point of wanting ctb. I wish you the best with what you are doing.

 

[Cosmic dust]

Sometimes I fantasize about writing all my ramblings and reflections in a book (or better, a digital file) and releasing it on the day I finally decided to cbt, but not for my family or people I know, I am ashamed of leaving anything for them, they wouldn't understand either way and I don't think they deserve an explanation or anything.

I guess all of us want, to some degree, to be seen, to be understood and to be remembered, and maybe to say to those especial people how much we love them, maybe that is why so many people leave notes.

 

[hellispink]

That is an amazing idea. I would do it but none of them cares about me. So I won't waste my time and breath.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

Keeping a jorunal in either paper or audio log form is a good way of tracking your life. I have been keeping a journal since 2015 where I usually just write entries wherever in severely euphoric or depressed state, sometimes to note down some of my thoughts too. I intend to write my suicide note or rather a farewell entry in there too before leaving. It will give a proper insight for others which circumstances drove me to this decision.

 

[Graytaichi]

I dont think its a amazing idea. It would cause more trama. As to why i did take care, what if question rumbling in the readers mind.

 

[Squiddy]

I've actually been doing that myself for a few months now