Venting I've never thought life could/would become so painful..

[_Minsk]

it feels so unreal, at times i feel like dissociating from reality, just too much to handle. if i could have myself fixed and be healthy again, i think i would still consider ctb. who would want to life in this hell anyways, just the smallest decision could turn life upside down and youre fucked again...life is so dam exhausting..

 

[Final Escape]

Yea it sucks I know what u mean. Having a tough day today

 

[Sinai Silence]

The thing as well is if you were to be fixed, as you put it, you've still gone through a lot that has changed your life drastically. You will always live with that, its why there's such terms like cancer survivors. Whatever hardships of life we've been through it becomes part of our identity once it leaves or we leave.

There were points for me where I thought my mental health was improving but I was just in denial about it all. People tend to look through life with rose tinted glasses, whatever works for them I guess. I would choose to ctb every time.

I hope you find some peace in this life, lord knows we all need a break.

 

[dysfunctional]

I could have never imagined how painful my life has become due to my mental illness popping up in my early 30s. Never ever.