Ive become apathetic and indifferent

[NoMoreSanity]

I cant care anymore. Ive ran out of kindness and empathy. Every day us just mental torment and misery. I have friends and family i care about enough, but the world as a whole? Don't give a shit. I don't care if that makes me evil, what good can you even do in life. I don't care about suffering except my own, it's a waste of time when I know nothings gonna change. I also hate most humans, even pessimists anger me, because they say all these truths and do nothing about it. They just sit and complain. Humanity is a failure on both ends, both pro life and anti life. Just apes complaining about shit that only matters because our minds want it to matter. I can't wait to die so I don't have to hear anyone anymore. I don't care about this world and it's issues. It's all a waste of time any way. None of us are going to solve anything anyway. I put so much faith in humanity, then I put it into pessmists/antilifers only, then I realized they are all lairs and cheats, just saying shit to pass the time, all of them are the same. I don't care anymore. Let the world tare itself apart. Being cynical and nihilistic makes it much more bearable, because you realize everything in this world is just going to die and all their sufgeri forgotten eventually. Call me an evil sadist, i dont care. Why would i hold empathy for a world where suffering rules?