It's time to do it

[OnMyLast Legs]

Sorry in advance, I'm nearly certain to back out. Partial hanging rarely works, and I stand up when it starts to.

The thing is, I can't just rot at home forever. Obligations are upon me and I don't want to tell people, "Sorry, no can do! I'm rotting at home with debilitating depression!"

I'm old (almost 37) with no money or way to make it. It's a nightmare scenario. I really did ruin my life by misspending my youth. What a foolish and vicious boy I was.

I've been whining here about how I lack the courage to hang for 6mo. It would be silly to post a goodbye thread.

But it really is time.

 

[yotaka]

If this is it for you, know that I will miss seeing you here. Even though we have differences, it's been comforting to see someone else around my age with similar regrets.

And if this isn't it, please don't be hard on yourself about it.

Whatever way things go, I hope you feel love and peace

 

[paranoias64]

i relate to that debilitating depression. i just want to let u know that 37 isn't old and that plenty of others find a way to manage. i'm hoping the best for u whichever option u choose <3

 

[uselessmanz]

I literally feel like smashing my head wide open with anger. I hope you can make this happen. When is the attempt?

 

[Claymore7274]

i've been reading your posts for a few months now, if you actually do it i'll miss you, you make me feel like i'm not alone in the partial hanging topic

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I literally feel like smashing my head wide open with anger. I hope you can make this happen. When is the attempt?

Never, I'm a coward. There's always a reason not to. I'm having weird restlessness from lurasidone so I guess that makes now not a good time

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I missed work today. Things are coming to a head.

 

[Cepheuss]

You're one of the best people on this site, i know i reached out to you before but genuinely the way you help everyone out i will miss seeing you everywhere. i wish you the best

 

[SDB]

I missed work today. Things are coming to a head.

Are you getting fired?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Are you getting fired?

I don't really work, this is a month-long part time job coaching middle school wrestling

 

[StoneCactus]

Never, I'm a coward. There's always a reason not to. I'm having weird restlessness from lurasidone so I guess that makes now not a good time

Lurasidone can be a nasty drug. It gave me a manic episode so bad I almost needed to be hospitalized. Have you asked about alternatives? There are also things you can take to make the restlessness get better. I don't feel comfortable saying more--I am not a doctor etc.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Lurasidone can be a nasty drug. It gave me a manic episode so bad I almost needed to be hospitalized. Have you asked about alternatives? There are also things you can take to make the restlessness get better. I don't feel comfortable saying more--I am not a doctor etc.

I have not. I should call my doc

 

[SDB]

Sorry in advance, I'm nearly certain to back out. Partial hanging rarely works, and I stand up when it starts to.

The thing is, I can't just rot at home forever. Obligations are upon me and I don't want to tell people, "Sorry, no can do! I'm rotting at home with debilitating depression!"

I'm old (almost 37) with no money or way to make it. It's a nightmare scenario. I really did ruin my life by misspending my youth. What a foolish and vicious boy I was.

I've been whining here about how I lack the courage to hang for 6mo. It would be silly to post a goodbye thread.

But it really is time.

Sorry in advance, I'm nearly certain to back out. Partial hanging rarely works, and I stand up when it starts to.

The thing is, I can't just rot at home forever. Obligations are upon me and I don't want to tell people, "Sorry, no can do! I'm rotting at home with debilitating depression!"

I'm old (almost 37) with no money or way to make it. It's a nightmare scenario. I really did ruin my life by misspending my youth. What a foolish and vicious boy I was.

I've been whining here about how I lack the courage to hang for 6mo. It would be silly to post a goodbye thread.

But it really is time.

When is the time?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

When is the time?

All the time, man. I just can't follow through.

Hanging is squeezing your carotid arteries so hard that blood can't get to your brain. This causes the brain to shut down, ultimately stopping your heart.

That is such a grand, violent thing to do. It's the kind of thing deemed too cruel for the death penalty now. How on earth can I do this to myself?

 

[SDB]

All the time, man. I just can't follow through.

Hanging is squeezing your carotid arteries so hard that blood can't get to your brain. This causes the brain to shut down, ultimately stopping your heart.

That is such a grand, violent thing to do. It's the kind of thing deemed too cruel for the death penalty now. How on earth can I do this to myself?

I've practiced hanging a few times I briefly passed out with belts but can't seem to duplicate again or with ropes. Ropes hurt I know it's hard. Hopefully one of two SN orders I have make it to me.