It’s so sad to realise nobody really cares

[easytarget]

The only people who "care" for me is professionals just doing their job.

I was so starved of affection and love as a child, anyone who shows me the slightest bit of care, even just calling me a pet name off handedly, I cling to it in my mind. It makes me feel so cared for even if they don't mean it.

But they have no idea I'm like this. Then I just want them to care for me, but soon enough, they stop "caring". Or they leave their job. Or they just get sick of me and stop sticking to their word.

I wish I didn't get so attached to the tiniest bit of care. And I wish people would stop leaving and getting sick of me.

:(

 

[eternalflame]

Maybe you should get a pet.

 

[easytarget]

Maybe you should get a pet.

I'd love to get a dog but not allowed pets where I live :( I love animals

 

[eternalflame]

Well you sound like a good person, feel sorry for your situation.

 

[Nirrend]

The only people who "care" for me is professionals just doing their job.

I was so starved of affection and love as a child, anyone who shows me the slightest bit of care, even just calling me a pet name off handedly, I cling to it in my mind. It makes me feel so cared for even if they don't mean it.

But they have no idea I'm like this. Then I just want them to care for me, but soon enough, they stop "caring". Or they leave their job. Or they just get sick of me and stop sticking to their word.

I wish I didn't get so attached to the tiniest bit of care. And I wish people would stop leaving and getting sick of me.

:(

Hi @easytarget

Your words make so much sense, it's so funny because, what you describe is like 1000% reality.

We spend our lives dropping hints to those around us that we're not okay, that we're lonely. We're not noticed or taken seriously.

At some point, for many reasons you are "taken care of" but as you say, the carer is just doing it because it's their job and not really out of empathy for you (I'm not saying carers don't like people) but imagine a world where these professions didn't exist, the number of people who would actually like to help people would be so small.

Anyway, and to finish, the day you ctb, everyone regrets you , you become surprisingly the most loved person on earth.

So cynical

We give you strength and I am sorry for what you are going through <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that most people only care about what directly affects themselves. After all, people are selfish, and I see people as being disappointing and unreliable as well. I'm sorry that you suffer so much. It really is such a cruel life.

 

[keitaro]

this is very relatable. it's so easy to feel alone.

 

[adventurer]

The only people who "care" for me is professionals just doing their job.

I was so starved of affection and love as a child, anyone who shows me the slightest bit of care, even just calling me a pet name off handedly, I cling to it in my mind. It makes me feel so cared for even if they don't mean it.

But they have no idea I'm like this. Then I just want them to care for me, but soon enough, they stop "caring". Or they leave their job. Or they just get sick of me and stop sticking to their word.

I wish I didn't get so attached to the tiniest bit of care. And I wish people would stop leaving and getting sick of me.

:(

i completely feel and understand this. it's something i've been feeling for my entire life, much like you. i've been through four therapists who all moved jobs while i was their patient/client. it's very disheartening. and clinging to what we're given is all we can do as kids who grew up so devoid of love.

 

[Julgran]

I'd love to get a dog but not allowed pets where I live :( I love animals

Does a fish in a bowl or in an aquarium, count? I mean, such animals will never ruin the environment that you live in. You might want to ask your landlord - or whoever it is who's making the decisions about your living space - whether it's allowed to keep a bowl or aquarium animal, or not.