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anchorsaweigh06

anchorsaweigh06

dying is easy, living is harder.
May 21, 2026
9
Well. That's that, I guess.

Checked my university email a few minutes ago to find that I've officially been kicked out of my undergraduate major/pre-medicine track due to terrible academic performance. My entire life has been built on the premise that I'd succeed in school, graduate from college, and become a doctor to please my family. I'd been interested in medicine since birth, but I guess I should've realized it wasn't going to work out sooner. Pretty ironic considering that I was just speaking with my grandmother last week regarding her request for a top medical school to save an enrollment spot for me. I don't really have a backup plan, either.

I've officially failed. Nothing substantial left to live for, as far as I'm concerned. Roughly about a month left before I CTB; guess this won't matter in a few weeks, anyway.
 
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nettspend

nettspend

I imagine Icarus laughing as he falls
Jun 23, 2026
73
I'm sorry to hear about that. I'm in a similar situation. I had to drop out of medical school due to substance abuse & mental illness. Now I'm just completely lost.

It's hard to settle for a "normal" job when you were expecting a meaningful and interesting career for such a long time, and worked so hard for it. Now all my efforts have been in vain.

I don't really have any words of encouragement for you. Everything just sucks.
 
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9dominos

Likes to Question Everything
Jul 4, 2026
3
Well I'm sorry for you, I guess I wouldn't know the exact feeling but if you do plan on ending it, have you considered trying to just start over, it might not be easy but it would be better than cutting your life short I would say, we only live once, I just hope this could give you some small amount of hope, perhaps just enough for you to try and turn your life around <3
 
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dustoff

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Apr 15, 2026
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that's brutal. i didn't even bothered with educamation past high school since idgaf about getting job or money and im not getting hired anyway bc im disabled. being fed and having a place to sleep is enough. neeting maybe an option if you change your mind but it depends on readiness of your parents to support a freeloader.
 
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da5ae5ae

da5ae5ae

Every existing thing is impermanent
Jun 9, 2026
41
Are your grades good enough to / are you able to do something different? I did biomedical science which ended up being completely useless career wise, plus it took me a number of years to figure out what I was even good at (and worked/volunteered which helped me to figure it out). I don't know what it feels like to fail with the pressure from family but I wonder if there's something else you've ever considered as a back up?

Ps I'm really sorry you're in this situation :(
 
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thekop85

Sorry I'm not good at English.
Jul 3, 2026
64
You're going through a really tough time.
I can sense how you're feeling.
I don't want to give you the cliché advice to "not get too discouraged."
But since you're still young and have plenty of other opportunities ahead of you,
I hope you don't rush to give up just yet
I'm sorry to hear about that. I'm in a similar situation. I had to drop out of medical school due to substance abuse & mental illness. Now I'm just completely lost.

It's hard to settle for a "normal" job when you were expecting a meaningful and interesting career for such a long time, and worked so hard for it. Now all my efforts have been in vain.

I don't really have any words of encouragement for you. Everything just sucks.
I hope you feel better soon.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I'm sorry you failed becoming a Dr. med. but honestly that's not the end of life bc not everyone is made to become a Dr. med. Certainly, you have other qualifications that make you good at sth!
 
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iguazo falls

iguazo falls

Student
May 20, 2026
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how supportive are yuour family? have they been pressuring you into being a doctor? its ok if u dont want to elaborate but i dont think its totally over for u. university isnt for everyone. but regardless i am sorry ur going thru this, i dont wanna underplay how it might feel rn. is it possibel for u to start again after some time has passed in medicine? but again i get if u dont wanna think about it rn, take ur time to process and see how you feel. sending hugs.
 
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