It’s my will to live that is completely crazy and irrational

[JustSwingingTheD]

There is simply nothing worth sticking around that can be realistically expected to happen in my life. Still, for whatever reason i don't want to give up quite yet. That's the crazy, irrational kind of thinking that i should be getting therapy for.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Sometimes it baffles me the kinds of copes people fall on to justify the huge losses they take in life. There are people who will take every bad situation and wring it out for the tiniest drop of optimism, even when it's really bone-dry. "Yeah I'm impoverished now, but this has given me a newfound appreciation for what little I have." These people are essentially another species to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that it can be hard to let go of this life as all humans are programmed to survive and this existence is all we know after all. We cannot comprehend what it would be like to not exist. I do not want to live at all personally, and I never will. I do not understand how anyone could want to live in a world where there is so much suffering, but I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Jred]

Sometimes it baffles me the kinds of copes people fall on to justify the huge losses they take in life. There are people who will take every bad situation and wring it out for the tiniest drop of optimism, even when it's really bone-dry. "Yeah I'm impoverished now, but this has given me a newfound appreciation for what little I have." These people are essentially another species to me.

It really is baffling. To make it make sense to me, I'd say it's just a strong sense of "fake it til you make it" but even then that implies the belief that one day you'll make it, which i cant fathom either. I do envy people like though

 

[Superdeterminist]

It really is baffling. To make it make sense to me, I'd say it's just a strong sense of "fake it til you make it" but even then that implies the belief that one day you'll make it, which i cant fathom either. I do envy people like though

I envy them, but only if they actually make it. If they never actually make it in a way that I would personally be satisfied with, I just think their optimism is unfounded.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

OP, that is still hope you have. For better or worse. Hope is her own bitch. You can't force her out. She leaves when she is good and ready.