I'm sad that it has come to this. But it's my own fault for being persuaded to take these drugs and for being bullied by almost everyone around me for all of my life.i can't see a way out now my dad has died the only one who really listened even then he put me down. My mum has made her own life without me and I'm a failure for giving up so many jobs due to mental health. I feel like a loser and a failure. I have no sex drive now due to all the drugs I'm on and it's likely I won't be able to have kids as the meds I'm on have given me pcos and affected my fertility due to the side affects. My sister doesn't care. Her kids don't care they all think I'm a bad person due to who I have chosen to date. I love him I do but he has made some terrible mistakes in life which people will inevitably judge me for. I cant cope. Every thing bad in life seems to have happened to me and I feel like I have been cursed or hexed by people who hate me.
