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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
2,081
I hate being sober now like I just don't want it. It's all expensive.

Just using crap like food alcohol/other drugs to get by. It's expensive but I just can't.
I've coped with all the things I was taught to all the time & im at my limit. Can't do it much anymore.

This itching inside of such distaste for life is too much. I hope I can leave soon. I've had my time in life & I'm over it
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
I get you. I use food for comfort, energy drinks etc. But nothing is cheap in the world, its like any kind of addiction really. I have that same itch and tiredness. It's a tiredness so deep down and so intense that no amount of rest cures it.
We're here for you though, you can reach out to any of us if you want to talk.
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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I'm an (ex) alcoholic but I can't drink anymore due to my health. I would kill for a beer or six. I face a sober life with less than 2 hours sleep a night. I'm exhausted. Putting 5000 percent in to get 20 percent back.
I can relate I think.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
2,081
Like It sucks bc compared to my friends I'm like a loser doing nothing. I'm n interested in anything anymore tho. & I'm not interested in getting back any interest tbh.
maybe if I worked it'd be better but being on disability & fixed income makes things hard enough.
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

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Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Like It sucks bc compared to my friends I'm like a loser doing nothing. I'm n interested in anything anymore tho. & I'm not interested in getting back any interest tbh.
maybe if I worked it'd be better but being on disability & fixed income makes things hard enough.
I get that. My friends are married with kids, nice houses, social lives and here I am. Nothing. But I try and not compare myself to others and remmeber everyone's situation is different.
 
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