Its day 1

[jawdropped123]

Its 20-3-2022
Ive talked to a friend last night that i havent talk to in a long time and it doesnt feel the same anymore. Its my first day starving again. Im not hungry or in pain. I just need some motivation to keep starving.
I want to go cycling this morning. I want to go to the bridge but im not sure if i will jump so im sticking to my other plan for now.
Racism sucks you know especially when you feel like your therapist is uncomfortable about the topic or like they are trying to shut you up...

 

[plough22]

Look after yourself, starving is very tough, hard on the mind. We are all going through a tough road, I hope you find peace which ever road you take

 

[Shu]

Maybe try a water fast friend. Just drink NOTHING but a Gallon of water a day for a couple of days.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Its 20-3-2022
Ive talked to a friend last night that i havent talk to in a long time and it doesnt feel the same anymore. Its my first day starving again. Im not hungry or in pain. I just need some motivation to keep starving.
I want to go cycling this morning. I want to go to the bridge but im not sure if i will jump so im sticking to my other plan for now.
Racism sucks you know especially when you feel like your therapist is uncomfortable about the topic or like they are trying to shut you up...

Are you trying to starve yourself to death? I'm sorry you can't deal with your problem with your therapist :-( I'm here if you wanna talk about it

 

[thereisthemist]

Maybe try a water fast friend. Just drink NOTHING but a Gallon of water a day for a couple of days.

this ^^^

 

[jawdropped123]

Are you trying to starve yourself to death? I'm sorry you can't deal with your problem with your therapist :-( I'm here if you wanna talk about it

Yes i am i know it sounds crazy but i cant deal with this for another 10 years. I would like to talk but not today because im going to the bridge soon just to see if i would jump.

Maybe try a water fast friend. Just drink NOTHING but a Gallon of water a day for a couple of days.

Done it already it doesnt work

 

[Shu]

Yes i am i know it sounds crazy but i cant deal with this for another 10 years. I would like to talk but not today because im going to the bridge soon just to see if i would jump.

Done it already it doesnt work

Oh cool. How long did you fast for? Did you drink a gallon of water? If you're trying to starve yourself I'm sorry but that is going to be nearly impossible to do. It's not impossible but it's extremely hard.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Don't you worry I've also tried to starve myself several times. I get it :-) you can make it if you really want with just starving :-) it is a bit slower, but you will surely die if you starve yourself. :-) try to not drink water as well or it will be too long. You don't have to jump that way :-) you choose ;-)

 

[jawdropped123]

Oh cool. How long did you fast for? Did you drink a gallon of water? If you're trying to starve yourself I'm sorry but that is going to be nearly impossible to do. It's not impossible but it's extremely hard.

Ive done it for maybe three days but it got worst i think its due to my empty stomach acid. Im not only starving myself im dehydrating myself to its faster

Don't you worry I've also tried to starve myself several times. I get it :-) you can make it if you really want with just starving :-) it is a bit slower, but you will surely die if you starve yourself. :-) try to not drink water as well or it will be too long. You don't have to jump that way :-) you choose ;-)

Yeah i stopped drinking too. But ive done it twice already and i gave up after 2.5 days thats why i need some support so people can tell me to keep going and to remind me why im doing this

 

[hopelessgirl]

Ive done it for maybe three days but it got worst i think its due to my empty stomach acid. Im not only starving myself im dehydrating myself to its faster

Yeah i stopped drinking too. But ive done it twice already and i gave up after 2.5 days thats why i need some support so people can tell me to keep going and to remind me why im doing this

Oh yes :-) I'll cheer for you :-) you can do it. You should lie down as much as you can :-) and try to be calm. Eventually you'll loose as much energy that you can't be hungry anymore. But you'll have to get there. And you can put some cream on your lips, or just wet them a bit with a sponge. Then you'll be more comfortable. You could also choose to take pain killers along the way. For headaches and such...

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Ive done it for maybe three days but it got worst i think its due to my empty stomach acid. Im not only starving myself im dehydrating myself to its faster

Yeah i stopped drinking too. But ive done it twice already and i gave up after 2.5 days thats why i need some support so people can tell me to keep going and to remind me why im doing this

Support for starving yourself makes me uncomfortable. That sounds like a terrible way to go.

 

[jawdropped123]

Oh yes :-) I'll cheer for you :-) you can do it. You should lie down as much as you can :-) and try to be calm. Eventually you'll loose as much energy that you can't be hungry anymore. But you'll have to get there. And you can put some cream on your lips, or just wet them a bit with a sponge. Then you'll be more comfortable. You could also choose to take pain killers along the way. For headaches and such...

Thank you so much i really appreciate it❤

 

[hopelessgirl]

Support for starving yourself makes me uncomfortable. That sounds like a terrible way to go.

Why is it terrible? If it's what the person need? This is their method.

 

[Shu]

Dry fasting can actually help your body heal. So can water fasting.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Why is it terrible? If it's what the person need? This is their method.

Idk to me it gives me the chills. You also said you have starved yourself before, so I guess you have a different perspective. I guess I should keep the thought to myself, but I personally cannot support a method that isn't peaceful from any research.

 

[jawdropped123]

Support for starving yourself makes me uncomfortable. That sounds like a terrible way to go.

I know its hard to understand but its what i need

Idk to me it gives me the chills. You also said you have starved yourself before, so I guess you have a different perspective. I guess I should keep the thought to myself, but I personally cannot support a method that isn't peaceful from any research.

I get your point tho

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I know its hard to understand but its what i need

Okay well I support it. I just got a bit nervous if you're asking for support for it, like you had big doubts. Idk I'm going crazy waiting for my method. Id starve myself if I could lol.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Idk to me it gives me the chills. You also said you have starved yourself before, so I guess you have a different perspective. I guess I should keep the thought to myself, but I personally cannot support a method that isn't peaceful from any research.

Well a lot of elderly people go with this method. It's in the literature. Even Munks used to do it. So many that they had to make it illegal in Japan I think. So it's been known to the human to go to death through starvation. You shut your body down but not giving it energy. To let the energy die out slowly. We've done this a lot. For some people it might be right. If they can go through the process. Calmly. Slowly. I don't know about the pain it would cause them. That's why for elderly people they usually offer very strong pain meds. So maybe this person shouldn't do it because it would cause them too much pain. So maybe we can't support this method after all. I agree with you.

 

[jawdropped123]

Okay well I support it. I just got a bit nervous if you're asking for support for it, like you had big doubts. Idk I'm going crazy waiting for my method. Id starve myself if I could lol.

I dont have doubt but pain have made me stop before but this time i just need people to remind me why im doing this is support me. But idk ive also looked for other method but im not comfortable with any of them

 

[Muse]

I am sorry that pain brought you to that point. I am with you, sending energy.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I dont have doubt but pain have made me stop before but this time i just need people to remind me why im doing this is support me. But idk ive also looked for other method but im not comfortable with any of them

Ok. So you're going with what? What other methods do you have available to you? Starving, jumping and?

 

[jawdropped123]

Ok. So you're going with what? What other methods do you have available to you? Starving, jumping and?

asphyxiation with bag it seems like not such a bad idea

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[hopelessgirl]

asphyxiation with bag it seems like not such a bad idea

I've tried that. You loose consciousness quite quick. I guess it could work for some people. I tried several times and it felt like I was gonna fall unconscious after about a minute.

 

[jawdropped123]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you

I've tried that. You loose consciousness quite quick. I guess it could work for some people. I tried several times and it felt like I was gonna fall unconscious after about a minute.

Did yoj give up or did someone find you?

Thank you

Did you give up or did someone find you?

 

[hopelessgirl]

Thank you

Did yoj give up or did someone find you?

I stopped before I lost consciousness. For some reason. For some reason it felt more like tests. I wasn't ready to die. But it would have worked. I was alone. Could have died peacefully. It doesnt really hurt but you're gasping for air. The air gets less and less oxygen. So even you're panting you can't get enough air. Heart rate racing. And then you feel drifting.

 

[jawdropped123]

I stopped before I lost consciousness. For some reason. For some reason it felt more like tests. I wasn't ready to die. But it would have worked. I was alone. Could have died peacefully. It doesnt really hurt but you're gasping for air. The air gets less and less oxygen. So even you're panting you can't get enough air. Heart rate racing. And then you feel drifting.

That sounds amazing did you use tape around your neck to keep the back secure

 

[hopelessgirl]

That sounds amazing did you use tape around your neck to keep the back secure

No no, I just closed a plastic bag really tight. Just up to you to not take it off, there isn't enough oxygen. Not sure if you could manage to take it off once you loose consciousness.

 

[jawdropped123]

No no, I just closed a plastic bag really tight. Just up to you to not take it off, there isn't enough oxygen. Not sure if you could manage to take it off once you loose consciousness.

Perfect thank you

 

[hopelessgirl]

Perfect thank you

Can someone tell me if plastic bag is a good method? I don't want the OP taking risks for nothing. And @jawdrooped123 be aware that this might end your life/or injure you. This is life and death.