Its almost time

[avoid_slow_death]

It's time. For a brief moment there I thought the move back wouldn't have done me better. And it seemed to. For a bit. But I soon realized that that was simply me putting a blanket over my problems and ignoring them. They are much too loud and present now to ignore and I only have two choices and one...and one ....


One is not an option I have anymore bar a miracle which is definitely not coming......


The thoughts....They're good and bad. Blissful and traumatic. Beautiful and horrendous. They intermingle with one another and all cause me pain like a glass rain piercing my skin and my organs and my mind and my mind....


And my mind



I can't do this anymore. However, I did make the effort to come here at my family's request, so....I owe them the Holidays. After that, I can finally rest for good. Start off the first day of the year by exiting my pain.

 

[theguineapigking]

I'm sorry dude. Life isn't easy. Emotional pain can be exactly as you described. It's kind of you to take your family's feelings into consideration, to at least allow them to enjoy the holidays with you, before you depart. Please try to enjoy your remaining time with them as much as possible.

I sincerely wish you the best.

 

[Unicron]

Families are the things that keep most of us here. As hurt as we are we're all compassionate for them. Have a peaceful time with them, my friend.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

It's time. For a brief moment there I thought the move back wouldn't have done me better. And it seemed to. For a bit. But I soon realized that that was simply me putting a blanket over my problems and ignoring them. They are much too loud and present now to ignore and I only have two choices and one...and one ....


One is not an option I have anymore bar a miracle which is definitely not coming......


The thoughts....They're good and bad. Blissful and traumatic. Beautiful and horrendous. They intermingle with one another and all cause me pain like a glass rain piercing my skin and my organs and my mind and my mind....


And my mind



I can't do this anymore. However, I did make the effort to come here at my family's request, so....I owe them the Holidays. After that, I can finally rest for good. Start off the first day of the year by exiting my pain.

I am sorry that you're going through this.
Even though you are in a terrible spot, you are still caring for you family and I think that's admirable. I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[Mental]

I'm so sorry you feel this way, I hope you can find peace.
On the other hand, I'm glad to know that even if you're this broken, you still take into account your family's feelings.
Be happy,be free

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is painful. I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. Your feelings of wanting to exit this life are perfectly understandable, it is hard when you cannot take anymore. I wish you the best and I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

 

[ikadasui]

I hope you get your peace. I've enjoyed reading your post on here.