its all pointless

[smirks00ts]

ive been on setapro / Lexapro/ whatever its called for a day. currently half the dose for the first week 5mg. full is 10. i knoe it takes a while for effects to happen. but it still all feels pointless. things are too much for me and I feel like im a horrible person for even existing. I really want to buy sn but its so expensive and i dont know how will I hide it properly as I live wirh family. hope I can figure it out truly.

 

[derpyderpins]

Is this your first medication try? The first one I was put on (pristiq?) actually increased my anxiety rather than lowering it. Prozac did help with my anxiety for a number of years although it may have left me just numb after a few years now. But it did definitely help. And Wellbutrin helped with my mood. Now I can't tell the difference when I do or don't take them, but you know.

I guess you're hoping Lexapro helps with mood since it feels pointless to you, yeah?

But there's also something to be said for feeling bleak and hopeless in the modern world. "Withdraw in disgust is not the same as apathy." Is the pointlessness feeling a new thing?