It'd be easier to swallow that I fucked up my life if it was my fault

[ikadasui]

Being born, given a bad brain, born as a minority adopted into a white family outside of my culture and just the general harassment from my peers influenced all my actions to bring me to this point. Feels like I never had a fighting chance and I just can't really grasp that because of situations outside of my control I've doomed myself. If I had been the one to fuck it up while gallivanting through life I wouldn't have grounds to bitch about it, but instead of it being a 1v1 fight so to speak I was getting pelted from all angles and couldn't even see my opponent proper.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so unfair, many people are disadvantaged right from the start through no fault of their own, I'm sorry that you have had to go through all this suffering. This life can be so awful and depressing and more than anything I wish that I never existed. I wish you the best.

 

[akana]

I relate to this so much omfg. Its what leaves me in limbo

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Being born, given a bad brain, born as a minority adopted into a white family outside of my culture and just the general harassment from my peers influenced all my actions to bring me to this point. Feels like I never had a fighting chance and I just can't really grasp that because of situations outside of my control I've doomed myself. If I had been the one to fuck it up while gallivanting through life I wouldn't have grounds to bitch about it, but instead of it being a 1v1 fight so to speak I was getting pelted from all angles and couldn't even see my opponent proper.

I can relate to this on some levels; notably the racial part.
I wish I could hug you rn.
I'm so sorry.