it will be another day

[Akerblad]

well i fucked up again and i didn't kill myself, i suppose that will be another fucking day of depression, anxiety, inactivity and pain and tiredness, i'm fucking done, i'm a pussy and i turn back when i had the fucking rope tied and around my neck and i was not capable to let my body fall and start to suffocate myself, i was sure, today will be the day where i would supress my filthy existence and i failed again as a fucking coward that i am, now i will to sleep and didn't feel the horror of the reallity, good fucking night (or morning)

 

[RazzleDazzle]

Yeah, it's gonna be another day of depression, anxiety, inactivity, pain, and tiredness for me too. CTB is always available as an option in the future, it's not something that can only be done at one particular point in time. Not doing it when it doesn't completely feel like the right thing to do isn't cowardly, it's smart. Tonight wasn't the night. So what?

 

[Midgardsorm]

It happens. You are not a coward. Everyone struggles with SI and stuff here.

I hope the day isn't as bad as you think it will be.

I'm sleep deprived and should try to sleep too.

Good night for both of us.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it is not cowardly, feeling as though you are unable to ctb as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier, I would have been gone a long time ago. The thing I want is to fall into an eternal sleep. I'm sorry you are suffering, life is just so depressing. I wish you well.