It shouldn’t be this hard to exit painlessly

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I just want to walk into a building and get knocked out forever by some gas. Apparently exiting this Earth painlessly is a lot harder than it should be. My extremely strong survival instinct during this horrific 11 year long battle with illness doesn't help either. I'm done with these incurable genetic problems. What kind of a life is it being a ghost in a body who can't feel anything their whole life? I've basically just been waiting to die because anything I do is just going through the motions. No one will date me either even though I'm pretty good looking even with an open relationship because I have some err dysfunction. I just want my soul to be at peace.

 

[kufajoy]

Hope you find peace one-day

 

[soul2realm]

Living is hard, no doubt about it. And you are right exiting it shouldn't be. I truly hope and wish a miracle to happen in your life and all of us here that takes away this helplessness, longing and disappointment. Till then try to take care of yourself. Loads of love and blessings.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I see so much terrible cruelty in how painless ways to permanently cease existing are so cruelly denied, it's just so horrific to me how we exist in this anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's such a horrible crime to me how so many humans want to do all they can to force others to suffer in this torturous, futile existence even know this existence was imposed in the first place. All that anti-suicide does is just cause way more harm and suffering, I really understand just wanting to be gone, all I want is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this dreadful existence again, I hope you find peace.

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

To my knowledge there are some gasses that knock you out fast, but they're extremely hard if not impossible to access. What an absolute joke. I might have to give the more accessible ones a try.

 

[northerner]

I just want to walk into a building and get knocked out forever by some gas. Apparently exiting this Earth painlessly is a lot harder than it should be. My extremely strong survival instinct during this horrific 11 year long battle with illness doesn't help either. I'm done with these incurable genetic problems. What kind of a life is it being a ghost in a body who can't feel anything their whole life? I've basically just been waiting to die because anything I do is just going through the motions. No one will date me either even though I'm pretty good looking even with an open relationship because I have some err dysfunction. I just want my soul to be at peace.

it's horrible that governments still fail to recognize that "freedom" should extend to include freedom over your own life and how to end it. genetic illness runs in my family too, it's terrible to see disease destroy so many people and no one will let any of us go out the way we want to. assisted suicide needs to become legal and widely availible asap </3

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

it's horrible that governments still fail to recognize that "freedom" should extend to include freedom over your own life and how to end it. genetic illness runs in my family too, it's terrible to see disease destroy so many people and no one will let any of us go out the way we want to. assisted suicide needs to become legal and widely availible asap </3

It looks like I probably can access MAiD in Canada, but I'm not sure how long it would still take to get it. Also, I don't like the process in that the doctor told me I'd personally have to deal with the funeral home and stuff while I'm alive. Just thinking about that makes me sick. I feel like they shouldn't put that on the person getting MAiD. I'll probably have to take myself out with CO.

 

[overmorrow]

life is forced upon us, and we have to live through the horror, there isn't anything more hellish than that, right?