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StrawberryRed

StrawberryRed

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Oct 16, 2024
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A couple weeks ago I got really really drunk like I could barely crawl up the stairs drunk, I like projectile threw up twice( gross sorry). I couldn't take it anymore so decided to take a nap to wake up sober . When I woke up I was covered in my own vomit( sorry gross i know), anyways I could have died so easily. I was sleeping on my back but my head was titled and as previously mentioned I was like spewing yk, so I didnt end up choking. Just a couple degrees to the side and I coudl be dead. Not that I want to choke on my own vomit, just that people die walking down the street or doing things they do every day. I don't put any effort into myself, I don't even look both ways when I cross the street. I couldn't count the times I've nearly been hit by a car. Yet I'm still here. It just feels like such a stupid joke. I see all these terrible news headlines and wish it was me. That person wanted to live, they had dreams and a future, kids, whatever. I dont have anything, that should have happened to me not them yk? I should be the one getting in highway pileups and stuck in house fires. I wish I could trade myself or smthn, at least do smthn good when I die.
 
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