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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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When I hear the news of someone out of us dying, it feels really sad. Although the purpose of this forum is to go towards the journey of peace. But as a human, it feels bad that people who we started to consider as a family, have to go and take that extreme step to end their life.

I don't know, if that should make me happy because they achieved what they were seeking or feel sad that we lost them.

In memory of every member who has successfully managed to CTB, I wish and pray that may all of their souls rest in peace 💐

May they get the peace finally that they always were seeking.

Om Shanti!
 
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ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Experienced
May 5, 2026
253
When we mourn the death of someone we actually always grieve our own loss. I don't know if you're into Star Trek, but I'll always remember how Commander Data stated this observation, the android who had no emotions but who wished so much to be human, and he always observed and studied human behavior. And he was correct in this observation, although it's a fact that usually remains unspoken.

Myself I've lost so many loved ones who were sent to the Great Beyond against their will, they were murdered. The Beyond is the only hope to me, the only place where happiness is possible, and I hope they all are in this much better, happy place now, my loved ones as well as all those who suffered so much from this life that they wished for a way out of it, and who worked and fought hard to achieve it.
It was what they wished, and we can only hope that they found on the Other Side all that they wished for. 🖤
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
729
I actually envy them because they achieved the escape from suffering that I cannot
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
570
It is very sad, I miss several members despite barely knowing them, but in the end I just try to be happy for them that they are no longer in pain.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
378
It's sad what they have to go through but I always hope they didn't suffer and are at peace. When I finally find a way out I want everyone to be glad I finally am not in unbearable pain.
 
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doneforlife

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Jul 18, 2023
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When we mourn the death of someone we actually always grieve our own loss. I don't know if you're into Star Trek, but I'll always remember how Commander Data stated this observation, the android who had no emotions but who wished so much to be human, and he always observed and studied human behavior. And he was correct in this observation, although it's a fact that usually remains unspoken.

Myself I've lost so many loved ones who were sent to the Great Beyond against their will, they were murdered. The Beyond is the only hope to me, the only place where happiness is possible, and I hope they all are in this much better, happy place now, my loved ones as well as all those who suffered so much from this life that they wished for a way out of it, and who worked and fought hard to achieve it.
It was what they wished, and we can only hope that they found on the Other Side all that they wished for. 🖤
It's partially true. It's our loss and we grieve what we are missing for sure...but we also grieve what they could have experienced in this side of the realm but can't as they are no more... we don't know what they might / might not experience on the other side of the realm based on the probability of whether there is an after life or not.
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Experienced
May 5, 2026
253
It's partially true. It's our loss and we grieve what we are missing for sure...but we also grieve what they could have experienced in this side of the realm but can't as they are no more... we don't know what they might / might not experience on the other side of the realm based on the probability of whether there is an after life or not.
This goes for those who die from causes beyond their own control. I think it's different when someone chose that they no longer want to experience anything more here.
And from what I've seen there are a lot of people here, unlike myself, who even wish to cease to exist entirely. Personally I strongly believe in an afterlife because I've always longed for freedom, and this brief existence in this miserable prison world can't possibly be all there is. But hopefully it's a choice - and if there truly is ultimate freedom then nonexistence should also be an option for those who wish for it.
 

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