Isn't it enough?

[Roseate]

Isn't it just enough that my own therapist just pass me on to another, then my friend, my best friend just ditched me, and I was already feeling down and it's all coming back and my mood swings just won't stop acting up. And I hate it. I hate being this weak. I just really need something strong, alcohol, pills. Whatever. I need to just bleed until I can't feel anymore, then just take a couple of pills to help with that.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

shit never ends, I am sorry you are going through pain, I hope you can find solace in something or some peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. Life really is tiring and I understand it is hard to carry on when things constantly go wrong. I can relate to being weak, I am not meant for this world and I simply cannot cope with life. I wish you well.

 

[Roseate]

shit never ends, I am sorry you are going through pain, I hope you can find solace in something or some peace

It's fine. It's all my fault. If I wasn't such a piece of shit, such a terrible person, such a failure then maybe I'd be fine right now. I can't even keep my mood constant longer than a couple hours, at most a day or 2. Yet I thought I could keep a friend? Keep a therapist? And actually be somewhat normal. I'm just a joke. It was stupid. Maybe I should just accept that in order for me to be somewhat normal, somewhat grounded, I have to take pills daily to get what other people are born with.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

It's fine. It's all my fault. If I wasn't such a piece of shit, such a terrible person, such a failure then maybe I'd be fine right now. I can't even keep my mood constant longer than a couple hours, at most a day or 2. Yet I thought I could keep a friend? Keep a therapist? And actually be somewhat normal. I'm just a joke. It was stupid. Maybe I should just accept that in order for me to be somewhat normal, somewhat grounded, I have to take pills daily to get what other people are born with.

I relate to you, I am not a sort of victim or anything as well, I am just too weak to be normal and I fail to maintain a stable life like other ordinary people somehow do. I don't have any solid excuses either, I live in a hell that I created for myself. I can only hope that something will bring an end to this misery for all of us who are like that.