is this hell?????

[nothingchanges]

i'm not even religious but i get this sneaking suspicion that i've been set up. my entire life is literally what my particular hell would probably be. every aspect is agonizingly painful, awkward, humiliating, depressing, tense, hopeless. i think if there's a hell i'm already in it.

 

[WornOutLife]

Not only your life, but I think most of us lives are kinda a hell. I mean, just look at the world we live in. Even innocent children die! This sucks!

 

[wordsonscreen]

haha you got me. I'm the devil's assistant. Welcome to your personal hell :) We have spent eternity studying you and we have created a universe for you which plays on repeat to slowly torture you until your spirit breaks :) Enjoy your stay!

but fr, I feel you. It is far too accurate. Every fear I have had has come true. Every thing I ever wanted, I received- and in a really fucked up way had it all taken away. It literally feels like an awful trip. Have you watched the good place?

 

[nothingchanges]

haha you got me. I'm the devil's assistant. Welcome to your personal hell :) We have spent eternity studying you and we have created a universe for you which plays on repeat to slowly torture you until your spirit breaks :) Enjoy your stay!

but fr, I feel you. It is far too accurate. Every fear I have had has come true. Every thing I ever wanted, I received- and in a really fucked up way had it all taken away. It literally feels like an awful trip. Have you watched the good place?

i have! kind of why i started to actually think about that

 

[Nigh]

haha you got me. I'm the devil's assistant. Welcome to your personal hell :) We have spent eternity studying you and we have created a universe for you which plays on repeat to slowly torture you until your spirit breaks :) Enjoy your stay!

but fr, I feel you. It is far too accurate. Every fear I have had has come true. Every thing I ever wanted, I received- and in a really fucked up way had it all taken away. It literally feels like an awful trip. Have you watched the good place?

What happened in it?

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I understand what you mean completely. Pretty much every fear I had since childhood has happened to me, almost (to be fair, not EVERY but almost) everything I've ever hoped and dreamed and prayed for has not only NOT happened for me but usually it'll happen to someone I know who never even really wanted [whatever it is, fill in the blank] while i get to sit by and watch from the sidelines and wonder why when I try so hard these things still elude me. I've tried so hard in my life, suffered so much physical pain and mental pain, and it just goes on and on and on endlessly. I do feel like my life is my personal hell.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Yes, I'd say this world is hell--especially if you're a non-human animal humans find a use for. Like the billions of animals in our factory farms or slaughterhouses.

 

[Loser47]

A world where we have to be thankful that we're lucky because others have it worse, this is fucking hell

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

This certainly is hell for a lot of people on it, but of course things can always, ALWAYS get worse. I don't mean that in a positive way, I mean that even if this really is hell there is likely still a Super-hell for people to go to.

 

[stygal]

I understand what you mean completely. Pretty much every fear I had since childhood has happened to me, almost (to be fair, not EVERY but almost) everything I've ever hoped and dreamed and prayed for has not only NOT happened for me but usually it'll happen to someone I know who never even really wanted [whatever it is, fill in the blank] while i get to sit by and watch from the sidelines and wonder why when I try so hard these things still elude me. I've tried so hard in my life, suffered so much physical pain and mental pain, and it just goes on and on and on endlessly. I do feel like my life is my personal hell.

This. That's the way I felt live was like in my late teens and early twenties...thing after thing happened - just when I thought it couldn't even get any worse I got a lovely surprise: it could. And even now there are circumstances I can't really begin to understand why they have to happen to me.
Whenever I think about my group of remaining friends who all live a relatively "comfortable" existences with maybe one minor unpleasant thing happening to them I get so confused.
I know I am not alone in this:
Many people in this forum feel that way - it's fucked up and unfair to say the least ...we seem to be magnets for disasters of all kind.
When I were to go to "actual" hell after my ctb they'd have to get really creative with how they want to inflict any more pain me. I'm ready.

Yes, I'd say this world is hell--especially if you're a non-human animal humans find a use for. Like the billions of animals in our factory farms or slaughterhouses.

So true...the world is a horrible places for those poor creatures.
I feel ashamed for having contributed to this at some point and probably still do without recognizing it. :(

 

[wordsonscreen]

i have! kind of why i started to actually think about that

I makes sense to me.

What happened in it?

What the OP said

A world where we have to be thankful that we're lucky because others have it worse, this is fucking hell

THIS. our standard of living is genuinely so low.

This. That's the way I felt live was like in my late teens and early twenties...thing after thing happened - just when I thought it couldn't even get any worse I got a lovely surprise: it could. And even now there are circumstances I can't really begin to understand why they have to happen to me.

When I were to go to "actual" hell after my ctb they'd have to get really creative with how they want to inflict any more pain me. I'm ready.

YESYESYES. Every fucking time I think ok this is rock bottom, cant get worse- it does. And yeah they'll need to be real creative with us :) I'm ready too.

 

[readyforsleep]

i'm not even religious but i get this sneaking suspicion that i've been set up. my entire life is literally what my particular hell would probably be. every aspect is agonizingly painful, awkward, humiliating, depressing, tense, hopeless. i think if there's a hell i'm already in it.

I wonder about this all the time. I am not religious but it feels like this is exactly what my own personal hell would be. I've thought about suicide since I was a little kid so a part of me wonders if I did kill myself and I got sent here.

It's a slightly different premise, but have you ever seen Wristcutters: A love story? It's a movie where if you kill yourself you just get sent to a slightly shittier world with all the other people who killed themselves.

 

[Nicothe13th]

If your heart's beating and you can feel it you're not dead, or in hell.

There's a chance I'll go to legitimate hell, suicide is a mortal sin in my religion.

But still, from my research there's a sliver of hope that the Lord will spare those who take their lives when clouded by illnesses, so I'm hoping I don't suffer for eternity.

That'd really suck, suffer on earth to the point where I want to take my own life to escape - then suffer eternally on the other side.

Still, as I don't have the power of Godly foresight, my plan to mitigate my suffering and put a permanent end to this shit show seems like the best idea I have.

2 smoldering barbecues in a BMW coupe, I give myself 15 mins max once those doors close.

Then...☮

 

[wordsonscreen]

It's a slightly different premise, but have you ever seen Wristcutters: A love story? It's a movie where if you kill yourself you just get sent to a slightly shittier world with all the other people who killed themselves.

not worth watching?? sounds awful

 

[readyforsleep]

not worth watching?? sounds awful

it's not great, I just excessively watch and read things about suicide

 

[Nicothe13th]

it's not great, I just excessively watch and read things about suicide

This site is good for that too

 

[Trisolaris]

I know how you feel. I don't believe in god but if there is one, he put me here to be tormented.

 

[Antigonish]

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

"Action is transitory, a step, a blow, the motion of a muscle, this way or that, 'tis done, and in the after-vacancy we wonder at ourselves like men betrayed.
Suffering is permanent, obscure and dark, and shares the nature of infinity."
William Wordsworth

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

If I was a solipsist I'd say that this is a form of hell. But everyone around me seem to have okay lives, so I guess it's not really.

 

[grungeCat]

I think you're right. Sometimes it feels like this world is just created to torture us

 

[Deltawaves74]

Maybe some people got the short straw and are stuck in their private hell. I truely believe for some it's an agonising pain that won't let up. Trying to find some scraps of hope I can't find.

 

[voyager]

Feel the same. Used to have a good life a long time ago and back then it was almost like things would just fall into place practically by themselves. Now, it's the same but in reverse. Pretty much everything that can go wrong does, and it's become increasingly impossible to stem the tide with less and less energy. Also, unlike with happiness there doesn't seem to be a cap on misery. There's always another low. Which in future retrospect makes this the "better times", and that's completely fucked...

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Feel the same. Used to have a good life a long time ago and back then it was almost like things would just fall into place practically by themselves. Now, it's the same but in reverse. Pretty much everything that can go wrong does, and it's become increasingly impossible to stem the tide with less and less energy. Also, unlike with happiness there doesn't seem to be a cap on misery. There's always another low. Which in future retrospect makes this the "better times", and that's completely fucked...

Loved this!!