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_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,141
i mean its already enough of a fuck up to experience abuse or torture.. buttttt.. your body says, yeah lets put this experience on repeat so we can make sure to suffer till we ctb:)))
(i dont have this type/this bad of ptsd, just wanted to complain about it because life sucks)
 
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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
Yes ptsd royally sucks. C-ptsd sucks too, literally it's near impossible to feel happiness. Since abuse is the only normal known for that person, but unpleasant, not experiencing abuse is definitely ok because abuse is horrible, but if there's anything that you really want, it seems to make it extremely uncomfortable to actually receive it, maybe it feels something like being in unhappy situation is for people without C-ptsd. So happiness literally makes you feel unhappy. It's almost best to be in a neutral situation even though you still always want things to feel happy somehow. I wonder if c-ptsd makes people feel masochism. I wish there was a cure for it.

Pretty sure there are other conditions which also work against your own happiness. I feel like BPD might be one of those that make it difficult to feel happy too. I hate it that we all suffer together, life sucks. Thanks for this thread and feeling sympathy for others in different situations.

I don't know how similar ptsd and c-ptsd are but you get recurring nightmares from both.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Having PTSD and taking anti psychotics..it makes everything about ptsd worse
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Living is very painful as there is no escape from ourselves and our thoughts apart from death. Consciousness really can be torture. Life itself is the problem, it is terrifying to think how much we can potentially suffer. I hope you find peace.
 
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killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
I have PTSD and it's killing me. I get lots of flashbacks since the moment I wake up, my day is full of them and I can barely function. And then at night I get nightmares related to my trauma. I barely go out my room cause everything triggers me. It's never ending and I'm exhausted. Everyday is the fucking same. Oh and on top of that I have severe chronic illness (a result of the abuse). I'm so so exhausted.
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
My body is fucking me with those nightmares and repeating stupid things, even small things makes me feel traumatized.

life sucks
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
Having some of these in psychic warr
 
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BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
I have ptsd too. It sucks. To me the reliving or intrusive thoughts are not the worst part but to constantly be on high alert and all the brain fuckery that comes with it. It makes it hard to function.
 
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supermario

Experienced
Oct 21, 2021
233
The disease of the consciousness is the worst, like a curse that has infected your soul. My OCD creates its own ptsd every day- it's literally hell on earth for me.
 
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idontgiveadvicehere

Member
Nov 19, 2021
37
OCD is definitely one of the worst .... it's like chronic pain, for your mind. It's like a parasite that tries to take over you and find new ways to make you suffer.
 
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LivingHellonearth

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Feb 17, 2022
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I have PTSD and it's killing me. I get lots of flashbacks since the moment I wake up, my day is full of them and I can barely function. And then at night I get nightmares related to my trauma. I barely go out my room cause everything triggers me. It's never ending and I'm exhausted. Everyday is the fucking same. Oh and on top of that I have severe chronic illness (a result of the abuse). I'm so so exhausted.
I'm in the same boat as you. PTSD is hell on earth.
 
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