Is that weird?

[Dontfeelmuchpain]

I'm feeling pretty ok, not as bad as in the past
But I still feel like killing myself isn't such bad idea. Getting on the 15th floor of a building and just jumping down. It would make my existence much simpler.
Can anyone relate to this?

 

[agentgeez]

I think it comes down to what light you view suicide in. It's usually seen as the ultimate, most painful decision chosen only to escape all other suffering, but you might see it as oddly inconsequential; since it would end your existence, there are no regrets or anything to feel when it's done with, so in a way death doesn't matter at all to the dead. I think that can factor into wanting to die, as even if happiness is perhaps possible, suicide is, as you said, a much 'simpler' way of dealing with the desire for happiness.