Help Is it wrong that I don't want to change the way I feel?

[lost_one]

I know I am too sensitive, I know I feel things more deeply and that hurts me more often than not, I know my emotions are out of balance, and I know I can improve on that. But I don't want to stifle or mute my emotions with medication.

It feels wrong to do that.

 

[timf]

Sometimes people can get into trouble chasing after feelings. Some find it healthier to work on thoughts and actions that result in feelings. For example, being in a relationship with someone abusive can result in bad feelings. Rather than medicating the feelings, finding a relationship with someone more kind can result in better feelings.

 

[ElTopo]

I know I am too sensitive, I know I feel things more deeply and that hurts me more often than not, I know my emotions are out of balance, and I know I can improve on that. But I don't want to stifle or mute my emotions with medication.

It feels wrong to do that.

If anyting it's a great mindset to have.
Medications can be a double edges weapon I think, if you can go without by all means you should.

 

[Abandoned Character]

You are free to not change, but it would be unreasonable to lament over the consequences that come with the lack of change. I'm not sure what context your in, but I wish you the best of luck in determining what is best for your.

 

[just a bird]

I don't find medication to be "muting" to my emotions, more so that it turns down the meaner part of my inner dialogue, but that's just my experience. Don't feel bad for not wanting to change, that's both a big part of having a mental illness (for me at least) and a good thing to be worried about. The duality of that is a funny thing.

 

[fedup1982]

Well, we evolved feelings for a reason. If say you believe that all feelings are healthy signs that tell us something wrong about our environment then yeah I'd say so

 

[neurotic]

I know I am too sensitive, I know I feel things more deeply and that hurts me more often than not, I know my emotions are out of balance, and I know I can improve on that. But I don't want to stifle or mute my emotions with medication.

It feels wrong to do that.

Whether the medicine is needed or not is up to you and your provider. But there's nothing wrong with "being too sensitive". It could mean you just don't tolerate how people treat you or being content with things going on in your life. If that were the case, you'd be doing yourself a favor to listen to yourself. Your emotions are so very important, and you're not wrong to think you need to protect them.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I agree. Even though I do that. When I have to.

 

[Nightfoot]

It might be a good idea to consider all the pros and cons of either approach. Not everyone has the same experience with medication. Keep an open mind.

 

[Cowboy_Kid]

I get it. For me, it's because all of these feelings feel like home, like me. Like, "who even am I without these feelings and thoughts? They have always been a part of me, they are what make me, me".
I think "wrong" is maybe not the right word here. Yes, these feelings are familiar and can and do bring a sense of comfort and stability, but they are stifling. I didn't realise just how bad it got until my meds got me out of that hole

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I get it.

I think for me, CTB is a sense of hope. I lie to people like my doctor and play a game in order to get meds but I know the truth is recovery isn't for me. I kind of get a giddy pleasure knowing my truth and that eventually things will end. I don't have friends to stop me and barely any family. So at least I have agency.

 

[Monomni]

I don't think it's wrong at all. I think if society (or maybe people in general) were more open to discussing and hearing out the feelings and ideas that lead up to suicide/suicidal ideation, there would be more progress with suicide intervention. But as-is, it's like the word "suicide" is a big red flashing button that shuts down all conversation, and then people become completely closed off to debating depressive ideas altogether. This just furthers the stigma, causes people to feel/become isolated, and of course worsens their symptoms.