Is BPD killing you?

[bpdscared9]

Hello folks, I've been making regular threads because I really enjoy being part of this community, I'm glad I found a safe place to share my own Issues, I'm very glad about SaSu.

In this occasion, how do you deal with BPD symptoms in your daily life along with CTB? Are you diagnosed or not yet?

 

[itsallogrenow]

Hello folks, I've been making regular threads because I really enjoy being part of this community, I'm glad I found a safe place to share my own Issues, I'm very glad about SaSu.

In this occasion, how do you deal with BPD symptoms in your daily life along with CTB? Are you diagnosed or not yet?

Diagnosed 2019.

My symptoms are a lot more manageable when I'm alone so I've isolated myself away from the majority of people and refuse to enter a relationship.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Yes, it definitely is.. I truly hate to see others also suffer from bpd. But it feels a little good to see posts from borderlines that I can relate to. Because 99% of the people I know don't have bpd and don't understand what I go through at all. It feels comforting to know there are people out there that do understand.

 

[daruino]

Yes diagnosed. I minimize my time leaving the house, because it usually makes me less stable and prone to get triggered. Not leaving the house makes me a bit more content. I don't know about CTB- I am trying to get better. But I have ideation every day. My desires to die are overwhelming.

 

[chopsueylol]

I'm not diagnosed yet (only with bipolar disorder) but my psychologist told me I have a lot of the symptoms. Being or not, this intense feelings are destroying my entire life. I lose people I love all the time and I can't live without them

 

[RedFruit]

I'm not diagnosed BPD, but I do have bipolar two. My best friend is a therapist and she suspects that I have BPD. Whatever I have, life is terrible. I'm struggling so bad without my partner and don't know if I'll ever be able to get him back. If I can't convince him to come back to me soon, I fear that it will be over.

 

[mikidagreen]

yea diagnosed since early 2024. i used to cope with a shitton of weed, meds, and a little bit of alcohol. i moved to europe in november of last year and things have been downhill for my MH as it feels my emotions are a ship with 2 bombs at either end waiting to blow up. im tired of this shit

 

[bpdscared9]

Yes, it definitely is.. I truly hate to see others also suffer from bpd. But it feels a little good to see posts from borderlines that I can relate to. Because 99% of the people I know don't have bpd and don't understand what I go through at all. It feels comforting to know there are people out there that do understand.

Of course, I would love to create a small community under my posts (I think it's allowed in the forum :3), so I'm trying my best to built one and a safe space for others who struggle with this <3

Diagnosed 2019.

My symptoms are a lot more manageable when I'm alone so I've isolated myself away from the majority of people and refuse to enter a relationship.

I resonate with you a lot. I'm currently in a relationship and it's been quite hell since she also suffers from BPD. Truly unfortunate how sentimental relationships can bring us down.

Yes diagnosed. I minimize my time leaving the house, because it usually makes me less stable and prone to get triggered. Not leaving the house makes me a bit more content. I don't know about CTB- I am trying to get better. But I have ideation every day. My desires to die are overwhelming.

I'm really glad to know that you're doing pretty much well about the CTB ideation, it's very tough with this disorder to get along with life. Proud of you!

yea diagnosed since early 2024. i used to cope with a shitton of weed, meds, and a little bit of alcohol. i moved to europe in november of last year and things have been downhill for my MH as it feels my emotions are a ship with 2 bombs at either end waiting to blow up. im tired of this shit

How are you doing currently after two years later? are things still going tough for you?

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I wish I had good advice to help. Meds are the only thing that helped me until I got bad side effects.

I try not to get close to people. I self sabotage my relationships a lot because I start getting really attached and obsessive towards people that show me just a bit of kindness. Plus I get really anxious thinking they might end up hating me or thinking I'm annoying eventually. I hate myself for this. I wish I could ctb rn.

 

[bpdscared9]

I wish I had good advice to help. Meds are the only thing that helped me until I got bad side effects.

I try not to get close to people. I self sabotage my relationships a lot because I start getting really attached and obsessive towards people that show me just a bit of kindness. Plus I get really anxious thinking they might end up hating me or thinking I'm annoying eventually. I hate myself for this. I wish I could ctb rn.

I get it totally. It's very hurtful how much BPD can make us obsessed over other people who show us a little bit of love, we're lacking so much accountability and affection that makes me so sad. But you're trying your best, I know that for sure. You're doing great!

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I get it totally. It's very hurtful how much BPD can make us obsessed over other people who show us a little bit of love, we're lacking so much accountability and affection that makes me so sad. But you're trying your best, I know that for sure. You're doing great!

Hope you're doing your best too!