is anyone else not planning on leaving a suicide note/goodbye when they ctb?

[kingkong57]

No one in my life deserves an explanation

 

[After Life]

when i ctb there will be no note

 

[Cheza_mus]

As for me right now I wouldn't want to leave a note but I am thinking about it for the next two weeks to come up with right decision

 

[Maaizr]

no note, theres no way it can even come close to being enough - my family will be broken no matter what, note will make zero difference from my perspective

 

[JinZhin]

I was planning to leave a note, though even if I didn't leave one I have 7 years worth of diaries and there is literally nothing interesting inside except me ranting about how and why I want to die over thousands of pages- I'm sure they would get it lol

 

[Kowachii]

Definitely gonna leave at least one note, I think it is nice to leave some memory and last thoughts explaining everything that was going on.

 

[alwaysdopesick]

I wasn't going to with my first plan and just hope it looked like an accidental od, but since plans have changed i feel compelled to leave a note. really the note is only for my brother and sister, my parents should have seen this coming and don't need an explanation. I just hope my dad is okay when I'm gone

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why some people choose not to write notes, of course it depends on the personal situation. I am only writing a note to close family members to try and make them understand why I have done this and to give them some closure.

 

[Deadweight]

I think my family and friends have heard enough of my bullshit. They know the score. So I'm not planning on leaving a note, when the time comes they know enough about me to know why.

 

[Arrow]

if i do make that choice, i'll leave a note. not necessarily for my family though; even if nobody was around to read it i'd probably still write one. just to sort through my thoughts and reasonings.

 

[Crimsonghost3]

I have 2 journals made one for my ex one for my family but every day I wonder what's the point it's not like I haven't said it all before it's no dying secrets even the explaining seems pointless I want to pretend they will care and cherish them but I think they will just wind up in the trash

 

[ClownMe]

I go back and forth on this, I wanted to leave a note originally but the more I think about it, the more pointless it seems, im not going to see anyone reading/reacting to my note as ill be dead, so what's the point? I'm still undecided though.

 

[KayKay]

No. I won't be leaving a note. If there is anyway I can make my CTB look like an accident I will. Whatever easies the pain on my children.

From the outside I look like I'm functioning, happy, healthy, well adjusted blah blah blah.

I'm hoping it may all look like an accident

 

[marinekiwi]

I often find myself thinking about that note. Since I like to write, it's only natural that I'd rather leave a note.
But...why? As @ClownMe said above, it's not like I'd be around to see them reactions to it.

Also not leaving anything it's kinda like revenge: they'll wonder for a long time, not having a clue.

 

[Soapie]

i feel like whatever i write in a note everyone will just write it off as the ra,blings of a crazy person. no one will take me seriously and its really disheartening . i might leave something small but other than that I just don't have the heart to

 

[sapling]

thought about just posting a pic of my sn drink, don't know if it counts. but im definitely not doing a written note

 

[looseye]

i feel like whatever i write in a note everyone will just write it off as the ra,blings of a crazy person. no one will take me seriously and its really disheartening . i might leave something small but other than that I just don't have the heart to

This! I've been labeled insane in the past for simply being introverted and into weird music genres; with suicide cycling through an endless state of stigmatization people will call me crazy either way, leaving a note won't do shit about it if we're being realistic

 

[RazzleDazzle]

If I could figure out a way to make it look like an accident no, I wouldn't, because I think that there's more of a benefit in leaving a question mark around it. Otherwise, yeah, I'm leaving a note just to tell people that there's nothing that could have been done, and probably leave some practical information.

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Nope. Don't have anyone who would be interested and even if I did I don't feel like I owe an explanation to anyone.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I am still undecided on this. Somedays I spend my entire day making the notes in my head but on other days I feel strongly that no one in my real life deserves to have any kind of explanation or goodbye from me. My manipulative and narcissistic family is the reason behind my miserable existence and I really doubt if they would care when I am gone. Their only regret will be to have lost a scapegoat. Anything I may try to convey in the note will probably be twisted insidiously by them to suit their needs and to gain attention.

 

[Tsunami_Warning]

Does a link to a song count as a formal goodbye?

 

[lastlife_]

I don't want to, but I will because I know it will leave too many unanswered questions or curiosities if I don't, and I at least would like to give my family some closure even if it's just a few words

 

[9kevinngannou]

Nope, I don't think anybody in my family will understand.

 

[benjiwill]

no suicide note. there's no one in my life that would really care or benefit from an explanation. the only people in my life are doctors and case managers anyway, so a note would be superfluous. I do have a box of very cool things I've collected over the years with instructions for my housing case manager to donate or sell.

 

[HabitualRain86]

I'm not leaving a note. They never showed a true interest whilst I was alive; why reward them with answers for showing up and asking questions when it's too late?

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Every time I draft a note it just ends up being a fuck you letter to my estranged parents. I have too much resentment to write anything else. While it felt cathartic to finally put my thoughts into words, I am probably not going to leave a letter. If no one cared when I was still alive, no one will give a shit once I am dead.

 

[TJuk]

Does a link to a song count as a formal goodbye?

Or even a poem not written by themselves

 

[Callie Arcale]

Definitely not leaving a note. All my family and friends know I am chronically ill and bed bound, so I don't think anyone will be surprised or in need of an explanation.

 

[idiot_dad]

I will, it's the kind thing to do for the people in my life. It's going to hurt enough when I go, I want them to know it wasn't their fault. As much as I can I'm trying to minimize suffering, not add to it.

 

[Pure]

I remember writing notes extensively in the past, really don't have any urge too. I will but just to keep it brief and explain I want cremation and ashes in the ocean or lake and no funeral.