Intrusive Morbid Thoughts

[icecream]

My thoughts exhaust me. My environment drains me. I've lost all hope. I don't have the energy for anything. I feel so much yet feel nothing at all. How can an insignificant speck of dust feel weight like this? Feeling crushed and defeated. Only looking forward to the day I get to sleep forever. Please let me sleep forever. Knowing I'm leaving pain behind so I lash out at everyone that would care. Let them remember the worst it will help them. I've become a stranger to myself. Even if I was to be happy everything seems pointless. The ignorance the cruelty in this world the love that gets taken the lives that get taken .. it's unbearable.. Just cruising through days until I can descend to wherever. What is the point. Why. Will this suffering continue after? Please no I don't want it. The love that fed my soul is gone. I pushed it away like everything else. I'm the definition of a contradiction. I just want the noise to stop

 

[ClownMe]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain, I too, want to leave this awful existence behind and sleep forever, while im alive there will be nothing but pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it is very horrible being alive. Life is just never ending suffering. The only thing I want is to be free from this existence. I know it is hard to carry on when everything is hopeless, after all we are only human and there is only so much we can take. I am also very tired, and no amount of sleep would take the feeling away. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace and freedom from pain.

 

[Arrow]

I used to have those, too. They only went away because I stopped caring about whether they happened or not.

 

[Arrow]

I used to have those, too. They only went away because I stopped caring about whether they happened or not.

which isn't to say that not caring is easy. it took years to not care about them. it was only when i felt the thoughts had happened so much that they had exhausted themselves of all meaning that i truly stopped caring. my brain threw all kinds of stuff at itself, and eventually i didn't care. nobody was really able to help me with the problem, either, just sorta let the thoughts happen and grew tired of it.