WanderingTiger
Seeking peace amidst the chaos of the world.
- Feb 16, 2025
- 31
I'm new here and wanted to take a moment to introduce myself and share a bit about my life and how I see the world. I apologize if my English isn't perfect, as it's not my first language.
I carry many regrets from my past, especially from my childhood and teenage years. I've done things that I feel are unforgivable, and I've gone through a lot, including experiences of sexual abuse and other painful events that I'm not ready to talk about yet. I have autism, which makes it hard for me to find the right words and express my emotions.
I don't have any friends and have spent a lot of my life at home. I even distanced myself from the one online "friend" I had. I often feel foolish for making jokes just to get attention, which has led to conflicts in my relationships. I also struggle with an eating disorder that sometimes causes me to go for up to hours without eating. My mood swings can be intense; a single event can plunge me into depression, only for me to swing to happiness or anger without any clear reason. These feelings often amplify my thoughts of suicide.
I find the world to be incredibly unjust. It's hard for me to understand how some people can live so peacefully, seemingly indifferent to the struggles of others while benefiting from their circumstances. It frustrates me to see some individuals working so hard while others achieve success with little effort. I genuinely envy those who can lead a normal life amidst all this suffering.
I struggle to connect with people who seem to embrace life without acknowledging its flaws, focusing only on themselves. My greatest desire is to end my suffering, and I often think about how my poor eating habits might not allow me to live much longer. I feel a deep emptiness inside, and I hope I've managed to express that clearly, despite my challenges in communication.
If anyone would like to talk or reach out, I welcome private messages. Thank you for listening.
I carry many regrets from my past, especially from my childhood and teenage years. I've done things that I feel are unforgivable, and I've gone through a lot, including experiences of sexual abuse and other painful events that I'm not ready to talk about yet. I have autism, which makes it hard for me to find the right words and express my emotions.
I don't have any friends and have spent a lot of my life at home. I even distanced myself from the one online "friend" I had. I often feel foolish for making jokes just to get attention, which has led to conflicts in my relationships. I also struggle with an eating disorder that sometimes causes me to go for up to hours without eating. My mood swings can be intense; a single event can plunge me into depression, only for me to swing to happiness or anger without any clear reason. These feelings often amplify my thoughts of suicide.
I find the world to be incredibly unjust. It's hard for me to understand how some people can live so peacefully, seemingly indifferent to the struggles of others while benefiting from their circumstances. It frustrates me to see some individuals working so hard while others achieve success with little effort. I genuinely envy those who can lead a normal life amidst all this suffering.
I struggle to connect with people who seem to embrace life without acknowledging its flaws, focusing only on themselves. My greatest desire is to end my suffering, and I often think about how my poor eating habits might not allow me to live much longer. I feel a deep emptiness inside, and I hope I've managed to express that clearly, despite my challenges in communication.
If anyone would like to talk or reach out, I welcome private messages. Thank you for listening.
i'm sorry that you have to go through what you are going through. I also have autism so i can relate to difficulties expressing your emotions.
